" .ThE oBsTaClEs liFe tHrOwS aT mE. "

AT LAST !!

2007-01-21T11:22:00.000-08:00

hello.

first of all, i'd like to apologise fo not updating last week! somehow i couldn't log in to blogger. ughs.

okk, last week was best! Went to Jurong Point with Mum, Aliff & Haady on Saturday to celebrate Haady's 8th birthday! We went to watch Night @ The Museum. Then, had a little shopping there.. After the movie, Mum and my brothers went home. I stayed at JP cause Akeem was meeting me there! Then, around 20minutes aft mum went off, Akeem called. Met up with him and had some famous amos! SEDAPPS!

Okk, the best part about last week was what tau! Mdm Cheng, my 52-years-old Math teacher left her handbag in her previous class.. She blamed MY class when she realised her handbag was missing. She went CRAZY! "WHERE'S MY HANDBAG!? WHO TOOK MY HANDBAG?! THIS IS NOT FUNNY!!" haha. It was really funny! The whole class had no idea where her handbag was! Then she went and lodge a complain to the DM. Mr Chua came up to class with a cane! WHOA! macam konon scary uh. -_-"
Then, Mdm Cheng went up to her previous class and found her handbag there.. She came back to my class and apologise! WHAA!! The DM was scolding us like as if we just killed his mum liddat! But when Mdm Cheng came back in a bubble of apology, Mr Chua went speechless and apologised to the class and walked out. Mdm Cheng was so embarrased! She felt she owe the class ALOT. At first, she wanted to give ALL 40 OF US movie treat! waa, that'll be about $400 seh! Fortunately for her, we told her that a pizza treat after our Math Group Study on Thursday would be nice. She reluctantly agreed! Thus, she bought the whole class 3 files. haha!! Alhamdulillah.
MORAL OF THE STORY : Never assume! ((:

Lets forward to what happened yesterday!
SPEAKEASY! yuppety yup yeps. Rauzan's My First Sotrybook is OUT! Get yours!!
Speakeasy went well yesterday. I want Abg Faz to host the show laa! SHEESH!
Before Speakeasy, I met up with Fana first, 3.30pm at Jurong East.
Went to City Hall, got ourselves Hot Chocolate! SEDAPSS! Thanks darliing long. =))
Then, after walking around Raffles City, we went to Marina Square and talk talk talk. We had alot to talk about! Didnt meet up fo 2 fucking long weeks tau! Fana is ATTACHED!! So happy fo her. You know what to do aite girl. I'm always around. Ouh, and btw.. Sorry for the disrespectful comment i said after speakeasy when you were on the phone with him! =S
Anyway, after walking around.. We met Fatal & his friend, Blaze at City Hall CS. Went to Dhoby Gaut to makan! And.. Fana actually went "lets go Bukit Panjang!" - she meant Plaza Singapura. All the way me and Fatal was disturbing her about that. Haha! We ate at Kopitiam, Yong Tau Fu! Sedapss laa. Then, after eating it was 6.30pm! ALAMAK! Late already!
To make matters worst, it was RAINING laa. So, we had to run in the rain. Hair got all messed up. >=(
When we reached, were just on time. (((:
Then, after the show.. waited fo Akeem to talk some things with afew other people before following DSC go makan at LJS, the usual routine after Speakeasy every month. After makan ,we went home.
Akeem sent me sampai Lakeside MRT paltform. It was 11.30pm ardy so, I waited at the station platform with Akeem till his train arrived. 20 minutes! cause we missed the first train, the second train wasn't fo passenger service. the third one took my Akeem away! While waiting, I really love the moment. Nothing special really happened and tho the feeling wasn't all alright. I can say I loved it still. =]]

Well, actually.. Now, I'm in my school uniform on a SUNDAY! haha. I just got back from collecting my edusave scholarship from Boon Lay CC. Well, I gotta change now. I have to meet my brother at his camp to pass him some stuffs before gg off to some library to do my DNT Folio. ((:

SHOUTOUT!
DSC, DA FAM, BNF'S!!
Next week, CC's gg to the beach! Tag along if you could. We have someone's birthday to celebrate. I betcha know exactly what I mean. ((:
love you guys.

love,
; nadiah ♥

ITS ALL A MESS

2007-01-06T23:45:00.000-08:00

hello.

here's another post. yesterday met up with Amir at 2.10pm at Woodlands. Went to Orchard and then we went to Paragon, he wanted to go to the toilet. When we walked out of paragon, i somehow got a flashback of me and rafiq seating there waiting fo my brother and his ex girlfriend. ourh gosh.. arh, wadever laa. we walked to Somerset and Amir brought me to some place at town. It was cool la! Then at that place, we were resting at some steps uh.. talking talking when suddenly this RED SOMETHING LIKE BIRD SHIT fell directly one step above the step i was seating at. It splashed on my jeans, my tee, my arm! GAWDD! YUCK! DISGUSTING! After that happened, I washed my arm, and it was like henna tau! GARWD! Immedietly, we went off to Centrepoint toilet where another flashback occured. Bootscrunk FCC. Last 2 years, 2005.. I remember gg down Centrepoint every weekend fo our performance. Best la.. I miss those times laa..
Okok. Then after gg to the toilet, we walked to Plaza Singapura to eat at BK. Done eating, we walked to Esplanade and rest there fo about 30 minutes or so, doing nothing .. Well, i don't know bout him but I was just thinking about what the hell i was doing la. Then someone from the DSC people called Amir's hp. Asked to come down to YP. So, we did.
Suprisingly, I met Fana there! WHEE!! happy seh! Akeem, Ejat, Tsun, Doink, Farz, Redha, VP, Itik, Izza, etc.. was there. We sat the the magic cricle then went to the kopitiam, to makan! After makan, the group went to check out Mathilda's House. It was DARK !!!!!!!!!!! SIBIS! I was scared sak! I held on the Amir's hand like fucking tight. And when a few entered the house, I was one of the other few who stayed outside. Then, Baby G scared me from the back. Cibai sak. I was scared till I suddenly felt like pee-ing sak! Then when we finally walked out of the place, I went to the toilet at YP.. Whoa, best seh. hehe.

Then we chilled at YP till 10pm. Went home, Amir sent me.. and my mum met him. Cz she was with one of her godsons under the block and she saw Amir sending me back.. After that, I got hell from mum. She went like, "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND AKEEM?!"
*smacks head* My mum actually likes Akeem like ALOT! She was giving me a hell of lecture when she found out that me and Akeem actually broke up 3 months ago.. And the lecture became more of a hell when she got to know I was attached to Amir! *smacks head -dis time real hard*

Oh my.. I don't know what to do and how to react. I called Akeem yesterday and told him. Gosh. This is why I sometimes I just don't wanna be attached. -_-"
I'm a heartbreaker. No doubt...

LOVE
; nadiah ♥

FIRST DAY!

2007-01-06T21:54:00.000-08:00

hello.

wheets! first day of school was gerek la!!
woke up to an early rush tho.. got up at 6am. Showered and quickly pulled on my school uniform. Groomed myself, make my bed, grabbed my jacket and school bag, took 3 spoons of Nasi Goreng fo breakfast and nitro to Lakeside MRT. While walking, i realised one of my buttons on my shirt is unbuttoned bcz the opening wasnt cut. Lucky me, there was a chinese funeral under a block.. I approached and asked fo a scissors. If i spent another 2 minutes there, i'd miss my train! So, i kanchong² and when the hole was there, I continued to nitro my way to the station. Unfortunately, i did miss my 6.45am train. SHIT! I took the 6.50am train, reached C'wlth at 7.05am. Ibrahim, Iyah, Sya, Irah was waiting fo me ardy. Gosh, the station was FULL seh! Clementi Town Secondary moved to the school opposite mine. Ramai la orang.. So, when I arrived.. the group walked to school.. Was late actually! The side gate was suppose to be close at 7.10am but when we reached school at 7.18am, it was still open. COOLIO! I got away. FUYH!
Assb was like usual.. Finally got that spot on the parade sq i've always wanted to be seated at! Haha. There was an attire and groom check. My skirt was warned. Socks were short. So what. I'm the one wearing those clothes. Why wud I want to dress like a decent school girl! So not preppy!

After the check, went to the classrooms. I stay on the same level as last year, Level 5! Pagi² da bersenam! HEES.
I'm seated at the ultra back of the class, furthest from the door. Whao, coolio. Haha. Got to know my teachers, some new faces.. My class has 40 people! Last year was half seh! 18 poeple. And I was the only malay girl among the other 3. One who never attends school.. and the other who seems like as if she doesnt exsist. So pendiam seh! haha.

Was absent on the second and third day because of sore eyes. Have an MC to cover this 2 days. Gossh. Must have missed alot.. Tomorrow, MATH TEST and i don't know a single thing seh. Sheesh. But i'm gg to check out www.lead.com.sg later. haha. RAJIN KAN! LOL.
Heard the form teacher, Ms Leong appointed me as the Treasurer. OH PLEASE NO !!! gossh.

I stressness ardy last year being vice chairperson. I don't wanna be associated with anything near the class commitee. Sheesh.
Well, i guess I should tell Leong that tomorrow!

LOVE
; nadiah ♥

just some random pics.. again.

2007-01-05T13:00:00.000-08:00

hello.

lets let the pictures do the talking...

ok. thats me, SORE EYES !!

thats Haady Ashsir eating Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream!

this is Aliff Sharil.. he finished last. =D

this is YOUR'S TRULY ... MY FIRST TIME WEARING A BLUE TOP! :D

after Ben&Jerry's, i ajak my 2 lil brothers outside Vivo.. they played the fountain. got wet duh. =D BTW, i got Aliff that top he's wearing! FILA BABY! wheets.

all thanks to mum's new phone..

YAY! greenme. *that eyebrow msn emoticon*

ok. i don't have a caption fo this one. HEHEE.

here is something cool i wanna share with you people...

ok.. done. im off to bed. =)

LOVE
; nadiah.

its a brand new year...

2007-01-05T12:11:00.000-08:00

hello.

ok. 2007; so its a brand new year fo everyone. i know its a week late but wadever, i can only update on weekends wad! hmpft.
guess what, for the first time in my 15 years, im having sore eyes! ON BOTH EYES!!!! hahaha. happy but not really uhs. =)

okk, lets blog about HipHopAganda. To those who didnt make it, you're a bitch/dickhead as what Amir will say. Even tho the whole event didnt go as planned, it was a blast! CC's first performance was best. We performed "Irreplaceable" & an original track, which we featured Rauzan on the bridge and chorus, "Feel It (Just Breathe)" . It was all good. Enjoyed myself big time. I loved what I was in. DAMYN! i was looking fly. :DD haha.
the whole thing was great. thanks to those who came and supported CC on our first performance. =D

Anyway, Crimson Coalition is now known as "CREAMZONS" =)

if you read my previous post, i wrote to Amir, "tell me ur love drug".
he did. and its me. =D wheets. uh huhs.
amazingly, he pulled me out from the mess i was in with 'that-someone's-boyfriend' and now im attached to Amir! wheets.
you guys didnt see this one coming did you? neither did i. seriously.
well, when i met him the first time at Woodlands RC, i asked Lynn who he was la.. i had no freaking idea i was his love drug. so then, as time pass.. he read my blog and he stapled sense to my dead unfunctioning brain about 'that-someone's-boyfriend' and somehow now i am in a relationship with him. my feelings for him is not as truckloads but i trust it'll grow and bloom with time. ((((:

(now back to the countdown)

when 2007 first ticks it's second, i was standing alone by the stage where the sound system was. that was where Amir was on duty that day. He was the event manager there.. I stood there alone, thinking what i was doing. Everyone was being hype and crazy with huge big wide smiles on their faces. I beamed with delight to see so much happiness but it didnt stay fo long because i realised immedietly that behind those smiles, everyone has something to cry a river for.. Then, I made my way to the other side of the stage to where Fana was. She was the first I gave my wishing to and a hug. Then, I went out to the crowd and pulled Swayza back stage. That was when the SheerzSisters somehow reunited. We hugged and I tell you the feeling of LOVE was undescribeable. It was simply amazing. Tears were treckling down my cheeks. I couldn't believe it. How can so much good things be happening on one day?
I got attached to Amir. Swayza, Me & Fana back once again.
GOSSH! Its a great headstart for me to 2007!

During the dance party.. Creamz were grinding with each other. GOSSH! Fatal was hawts! *smacks head*
Then, I pumped and crunked with Tasha, Syasya, Fana, Swayza, Tasha's sister whom I do not know her name but has been very irritating to me. haha. My arse and my thighs hurts like hell the next day.
After the whole event, I chill out at RC with Afiq, Amir, Fana, Syasya, Tasha, Feeqah, Tasha's sister whom I do not know her name but has been very irritating to me, Redha, bla bla bla...
We chilled till 6am. Fana took the MRT.. I took 187 home.. Amir sent me. Thanks darls. =))

Reached home, took a quick shower and had my rest. Then the next morning, wen i came online.. Feekee asked me to drop down to town. But no, I was too tired to go anywhere! I stayed home and watched VCDs after DVDs instead. I really had a great headstart to this new year!
Though my latest wish, to get on with 'that-someone's-boyfriend' didnt come true... At least now I have my own boyfey who I know he loves me and only me. I'm not sharing this love. & i feel superb about it.=P

Ok. This post is getting too long. I'll blog about first day of school tomorrow morning before i go off to meet Amir. You people have a great year ahead.

Dy, well.. im still calling you this tho im attached to Amir. Whatever makes you think i'll forget about you even after how much hell you've put me through? it was worthwhile. as i said, you're much precious than time. i said i'll wait. but what you told Faris and how you reacted to me when I talked to you crushed every single hope I had. and when you didnt show up on countdown, you dont know how dissapointed i was. you are never there when i need you. i had all the time in the world fo you but you never could spare a minute for me... so i fucking move on.

LOVE
; nadiah .

p.S : ASYRAF CALLED ME BACK !

open my eyes

2006-12-30T11:21:00.000-08:00

hello.

Speakeasy was "OHKAY". There was better Speakeasy(s). Haha! I think its because some people weren't there. But, I enjoyed myself! Got to meet Albert, who looks great with his NS haircut! Richard, who looks super hot with that new head! Alyph, who is just cute with the tiny hair stands. *chuckles* Not forgetting Akeem, he's botak! wheets. haha. He looks better with short hair. No doubt. Got to meet a few MYSPACERS. Juliet, Mirah, Nadia, Wizzie, etc..

Well, before Speakeasy.. Sheerz went to Kranji This Fashion to buy my coat for tomorrow's performance. Yuppety. Ok, i love the coat. Thanks Fana! <33.
Do come for the event wokeys. Its the last day of 2006.

2006, its been a rollercoaster ride for me. 2006 filled me with lots of first experience, heartfelt changes, reality smacks, dreams wrench & all those shit.
Looking foward to 09th July 2007. I don't wanna live fifteen. Something terrible happened on my fifteenth birthday and I hate my fifteenth year of living. Just wanna get thru this. =S
I'm sorry about what happened mum. I love you.

Aniwae, my 2006. Started the year off with my cool bunch of Hommies. Samsir, Wan, Fate, Syahinul, Ein, Shida, Isnaidi, Achik, Chips, Haikal, Haiqal, Peaz, Abang, all my hommies. I miss you great bunch la! Me & Wan won the foam party dance competition. Got ourselves $50 vouchers. Coolioness. *wowo*
Then we had a great slumber nite...

School .. 2006, 313, Queensway Secondary.. GREAT BUNCH. ((:
Miss Celine Tan & Miss Sheryl Kaur, you both are my best love. GOSSH. being stuck as the only malay girl in a small class of 18 people.. with only 3 girls; including me. It was hella-fun! WHEETS. the tears you boys made me cry, the pain you guys made me endure, the torture you boys never stop pranking me. sure im gg to miss it. haha. love you guys laaaa. one thing im glad about is that QQ is not gg to be my classmate fo next year. OUH HELL! she is a reason i hate gg to school. haha.
now, shes off. its all good.

Crimson Coalition... you both painted my whole life this year. Thanks alot guys. Eversince Speakeasy February, where Fatal and I first met.. We clingged on real tight and now, what do you know... we're performing together tomorrow. Celebrating the new year together. As a crew. As one family. Three Teenagers, Three Hearts, One Love. ♥

Brand New Feeling. WHEEEETS! my BIGGEST news fo 2006! YEAH! Words cudnt be put together to explain my happiness when Rauzan broke this news to us. I still remember that I was effing mad at my brother but it was amazing how I kept my cool. Having Akeem there at that moment was a real pleasure too. Thanks.

Gossh, I can't wait for 2007. N Level, Crimson Coalition, Boys(always the best part), School, Problems, Tears, Heartbreaks, Fights, Monthly Check Ups, Hate, Jealousy, Love.. I wonder what's in store for me in the year to come. Worst comes, Death. We never know. But if it does come for me.. Let ya'll noe, I LOVE YOU.
btw Fana, if you're reading this.. i've got a lil something fo you in 2007. Lets pray we live till then.

To all those who played a part in making me a better person. Those who stood by me, allowed me to step on them to get up to the next level, those who showed me the right way.. Won't mention names, you know who you are. I thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart. No matter what I've said in a song, in an email, wadever, im sorry. Without all this downfall we have had, I would never learn anything. You guys, whom I hate, I despise, I crictisize have actually been the ones who made me to who i am. Since I don't like you, I mould myself into someone better. And to those I have always loved, you guys helped me make thru the fights. and for that, i love you all. Forgive me if i've ever hurt you in any thinkable/nonthinkable way. hehhe.

Sincere apologies & appreciations from Sara Nadiah to all who have played a part in my life journey through 2006. Take Care & Keep In Touch.

Amir, if you can pull me out of the mess I'm in. I'm so grateful! WHEE! you still havent told me that love drug girl. ;)

Dy, you've made my past month a living love hell. Thanks. Its better if I leave you to her. Cause its so effing obvious that you will never let her go. Keep in touch la..
Just holla and tell me when I can end my waits..

LOVE
; nadiah.

its complicating la.

2006-12-29T23:10:00.000-08:00

hello.

ok guess wad. i want a drug named after me! whee.
amir is my new friend!

HELLO AMIR !! =)))))

my blog ritee?

2006-12-29T11:05:00.000-08:00

hello.
im just so excited because i have new pics. haha. here's the pics..

bcz i think im cool like that.

meet my new friend, "MR RED PETALS". he died yesterday. my little brother poke him with a needle and he burst. )))))':

i was trying to hide from reality.. i failed tho.

was just having fun with my table lamp and handphone camera. =)) PUTIH MELEPAK!

this is what happens when i think about HIM..

feeling vogue gituh.

my best BNF pose shot.

my BULLDOG face. as told by FANA. ((=

shafiee is just sitting down. i am talking to fana on bakyah's hp. bakyah is looking at me using her hp. eka is the fool who snapped this pic on my demand. =) ok the end.

NO NOT THE END YET!

to me, messed up hair is cool. at times.

yes, my whole brand new feeling fo.

i find SG POLY toilet very clean.. so i snapped a pic to let ya'll see.

oops. hehee. sorry!

LOVE
;nadiah.

you might just be right here

2006-12-29T09:38:00.001-08:00

hello.

im nervous! haha. about? Hip Hop Aganda la denggs! haha.
im thinking how will CC do on their first performance. gossh. cant wait!!
those who still havent got invites, do holla. i still have some. (((((:

ok, the next thing thats got me all excited is, SCHOOL IS REOPENING!
yeah! REAL SOON! Okayye. Peeps from school! Time table is up at the school's website. (http://www.queensway.sch.edu.sg) Check up on E-Zine. ((: BRING THE BOOKS ON WEDNESDAY! I'm glad to know that my PE lessons are on Monday & Tuesday. wheets! hehee. got my school shoes, bags & books already. school uniform.. only got the blouse. NO SKIRT !!!! haha. guess im gg to get into trouble on the first day. last year, i was late. this year, short skirt. gossh. Nadiah Nadiah.. its time fo a change. I AM NOT GG TO BE THE CLASS CHAIRPERSON OR VICE CHAIRPERSON fo that matter. NO NO NO. SERIK TAU. sheesh. well, cant wait to see peeps from school. miss you guys. ((((:

have anyone of you ever like broke up with someone who you know really loved you but you don't feel the same and you don't want to live a lie so you just break up with him but then when you move on and love someone else who is someone elses boyfriend and you start missing that ex boyfriend of yours. well, i miss akeem. i don't know why. but i miss him. but, no. im not gg back together. it just don't feel right you see. to think about the times we had and the way he made me laugh when times were rough, it was something nice to think about. is that what love is all about? i don't know. im confused. you see, i don't feel the way i do to akeem like the way i feel for this someone elses's bf. its 2 whole different feelings. but on the other hand, life is much a breeze with one of them. and it hurts to know who. gossh. i really need daily reality dosage. just so you guys know, im still waiting fo him. and last two days was his first month with his girlfriend. and last two days was my first day gg to town in alone on a rainy day. was quite an experience. ((:

ok, im in love with Lost Prophets & Plain White T's Music ok? hehee.
Lily Allen is driving me nuts! haha. ok, that was fucking random. -_-`

btw, Queenswayans.. in class 412 fo year 2007. Here's the time table for the first day of school..

GEOGRAPHY - 2 periods.
ENGLISH - 2 periods.
RECCESS*
PHYSICS - 1 period.
2ND LANGUAGE - 2 periods.
MATHEMATICS - 2 periods.

To all taking N & O Level in year 2007. Gd luck people!

dy, it hurts to know that you once said you don't wanna talk to me animore. im sorry about what happened last week! i didnt mean it to happen! i don't want us not to talk. i don't want us to be apart. i cant let you go. not after wad we went thru. im still waiting baby. i miss my ex boyfriend but i only love you. please dont do this to me..

LOVE
; nadiah.

HIP HOP AGANDA

2006-12-23T21:54:00.000-08:00

HEYHO!

Crimson Coalition is performing at 8pm.
You'll need free invites fo this. First come first serve basis.

Want your invites? Drop me an email, baby_serenade@hotmail.com

I will be at Somerset Youth Park on Thursday, 28th Dec from 1pm-3pm giving out the invites.

LOVE
:nadiah♥

loooong awaited..

2006-12-23T09:29:00.000-08:00

hello.

oh well. here's the loong awaited post.
you guys must be really eager to know how things are gg on rite! well, too bad im not gg to post anything more about me and him. the reason is simple. BLOGHOPPERS are tagging me and telling me WHAT TO DO. ouh please. its not that i don't appreciate you people coming over but don't act like you know me when you don't really do. ((((:
to those who knows me and have been asking me to cheer up and all, dun worry aites. i'll be ok! the last info i can give you guys is even tho i had a terrible huge arguement with him last 2 days, i still love him alot and am still waiting. patience goes a long way. :)

okok, lets talk about the HAPPY CHEERFUL part of my life can? haha. enough of you guys seeing the emo side of me. BLAHS XP! Faris is in KL. Having his shoppings done there. haha. better bring back stuffs fo me & fana! OR ELSE!! >=)
ok, back on Wednesday, 20th Dec 2006 I went camwhoring with my primary schoolmates and this one guy, PEAH i call him! haha. He's a fren of Eka.
it was just the 4 of us. ME, BAKII, EKA & PEAH. THE HYPERRANDOMSS! HAHA. <33 em lots.
had great fun la denggs! went to city hall and started out punks der. wheets. had a blast cant deny that. sorry guys, but i cant make it this Monday. I'm really tight on shecdule you see.. having my performance on 31st Dec, need to practice fo this. and school is reopening soon! im so excited. heess.
here's some crazy pics of us laa..

it was on this day too that we went home with flour dust in our clothes. haha. it was bakii's bdae celebration. haha. she was wearing black and she went home in 'faded' jeans and tees. ahah. >=) i ended up the CLEANEST. of cz. muahahaha.

okok, after that day.. i went out with Dee & Mash. Went to Marina Sq to watch Night At The Museum! Had a great laugh throughout the show! QUIET !!!!!!!! MY DAMDAM WANTS TO TALK. hahah! funny la seh! we had a few pics taken oso but Dee havent send them to me.. -_-" wasnt tt kecoh la... haha.

okok, after this.. something terrible happened to me. i won't tell you guys. cause random ppl will start their random spits on my blog acting like as is they're in my shoes and telling me what to do when in the first place they don't even know how many siblings i have! sheesh!

NOW I NEED THE RANDOM HELPS LA..
Have anyone done a school project on CROP CIRCLES before? drop me some infomations on ems aites. im confused. they're sources saying its man-made, some sources says its an overnite miracle. help me out here! i have less than a week to do this thing! and i hafta make a script out of this informations and put it together as a comic strip. lecehness tau mdm roslina. haha. =P

ok, talking bout project.. me and Baim are working together on the project. we met up on Monday, 18th Dec and we went to Queenstown Lib.. after gathering enough info, we started camwhoring using Baim's mp5! whee! but the pics kinda blurr la.. in less than 2hours, the cam was filled with more than 50pics of MY FACE! ahah. here are some of em...

i should post those and those only. haha. ok, i wanna sleep nows.

dy, im really sorry about what happened that day. let you noe something, if anything like that happens again(God Forbid) please remember that I will always love you... im missing you lots. meet me soon wokey darlss. *huggiessmooches*

LOVE
:nadiah
xo

NOTHING HURTS MORE THAN THIS

2006-12-17T08:38:00.000-08:00

hello.

guess what. this whole week, i've been crying every morning when i wake up.
since my bed is beside the window, i wake up looking up to the brances and leaves covering the blue sky and thick fluffy white clouds. to see a a new day to live with a fact that he is still not mine, i pull under the covers and start crying to myself.

usually, i grab my alarm clock to see what time i woke up. but this whole week, the routine has changed. -_-" goshh. this is affecting me real bad.
at times, i'll talk to myself.. i'll feel better if i move on. i suppose so. but i don't wanna move on.

"WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHATEVER YOU DO,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU,
WHATEVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU.."

i keep singing that bar to myself. sometimes tears accompany me along the melody.
why am i doing this?
he's got his own problems that he doesn't tell me. he's got a gf.
what am i doing? i'm loving him. but loving him is creating another whole problem to him. shud i go with the saying, "if you love him, let him go. if you're meant to be, one fine day, you'll meet again" or should i just hold on to the tiniest hope i have?

oh gosh, as complicating as it gets. nothing hurts more than this. i don't know what to do. i keep looking out the window. i keep hiding under the covers. i keep talking to myself. i keep doing things i know i am not suppose to. this whole thing is really affecting me badly.
it gets worst when i viewed his myspace pics and found a new pic of him and her. the caption on it welled tears in my eyes.
i love him. he loves her. she loves him.
now, where do i stand? is there anybody out there who can predict what will happen soon? is there anybody who can take away this pain and make my life a living peace?
i guess no. this is life and i've gotta face it. i've put myself in this situation, its only fair i go through it.

i've said i'll wait fo him. i will.
yes, if he can do this to his gf, he can do this to me too. but there is nothing that you think you've consider that i have not.
its not fair. i made things unfair. so, this is what i get.

gosh. seriously, this really is heartbreaking. i've been letting out heavy sighs all day long. no joke.

dy, if you're happy with her.. do tell me. if being with her makes you happy. den be it. u've got problems of ur own, i don't wanna add to it..
but, i'll still be waiting fo you. only you.
i love you tubs and buckets. *huggiessmooches*

LOVE
`nadiah
xo

guilty fills me inside out..

2006-12-12T22:08:00.002-08:00

hello.

ok, i noe i havent been updating last week. i cudnt log in using my home pc! sheesh. to know a what i was suppose to blog about, head on to my MYPSACE BLOG !! (=

okok, to those who read and know wads gg on.. u'll understand this post. to those who doesn't know whats gg on and is lazy to read my MYSPACE BLOG, then i suggest you don't ask me anything on the tagboard. haha. irritating sia.

last two days, he came over my crib. =))) haha.
we watched Saw 3 in my brother's room. then, my brother went out to meet his friend over at Yishun and i was left at home with HIM*. my two lil brothers went down to buy some candies. when they came up, they was watching Nick TV in the living room. So i was alone with HIM* in my brother's room. >:)
hah. eh! im still a virgin ok! hmpft.
as you know, he's attached. but i never did ask him about his gf. i dont bother. sheesh. wadda bitch i am..
aniwae, its kinda hard to be in this situation y'noe. i could have avoided him when we first met and all.. i cud have ignored his msgs. but i didnt. AKU BOLEH LAYAN LAGI! *smacks head*
back to the story..
in the end, we didnt watch the movie. we ended up kissing under the blanket. no, no. nothing was under the garments. HAHAH!!
its not our last, infact, it was our first.
after this happened, i just don't wanna loose him. he's all i want.
i have never ever fall fo someone who is attached. i have never kissed someone's bf. i have never accepted a guy with studs.
gawd. love is not blind, love doesn't mind.

at first, i didnt wanna confess that i love him. but Swayza said, if he, the one who is attached is able to say it to me.. why can't i?
haiish.

dy, you know i'll be right here waiting for you. its you that i want. you complete my puzzle. you give me my world.
yes, i have my dearest friends to lean on. but this feeling is just fo you. i'll wait fo you dy... even tho some people says its a waste of time.. i don't care cause you're just much more precious than time.
i carved ur name in my heart. you're an addiction i cannot deny.. *huggiexz ; smoochiess kisses *

LOVE
`serenade

2006-12-02T21:37:00.000-08:00

hello.

tell me, if you are a friend to this pair of cousins. both of them are having an arguement.
you were very close to the both of them.. and then when you guys are having an outing, one of the cousins said not to bring the other along. what would you do? would you not bring? would you bring her along? would you try to make things better? would you like to help resolve the issue? or would you just let it be.. and let it rain on the cousins? tag me, i would like to know.

just as i thought things were fine, i got to know it wasnt all along. you read the post about friends didn't you? you read what i wrote to my cousin, about my cousin, for my cousin.
what happened has happened and i tot we closed that chapter and fucking moved on. but why is this happening all over again? your wishes and prayers to God wanting me not as a family member is never gon come true. in our veins, we have the same blood. hate me, i don't care. you wanna be a bitch? be it upfront.
you're just fucking jealous get it? and whatever i say here, i don't care if our aunts, rents, friends, companion are gon read and comment all about it... do as you want.
i closed this. you opened it and started blabbering me. black listing me. bad mouthing me. if yuo haven't notice, you have taken my bestfriend away! and what more do you want? you wanna make my life miserable? well, get this straight.
if you're trying, den you're a plain fiasco. if you could have taken my bestfriend then i don't know what to say except that she wasn't who i thought she were.
bestfriend stick to each other no matter what, they help to resolve each other's problems.. they are someone who knows something is wrong tho we never tell.
you said only a few words and she had a change of mindset. well, fine.

now, i don't even feel like as if i lost a friend, i lost a cousin. cause you guys never were true peers.
you wanna know what true peers really are? ask around. and give them this situation.. see what others will say. i admit i did the mistake. but i apologised and wanted to move on and tried to make things better.
but YOU, you added salt to the salty water. how the hell you gon make it sweet?!
face it, the fact you're acting this way is you're just plain fucking jealous. yea, im boasting. yea, this is ego.
im over reacting? no, this time im not. its the way i am suppose to react. being betrayed like this? have you ever felt it? in fact, you have never.

you're dance interest? if i didnt forced you to joining Bootscrunk FCC, would you love dancing? if we havent fought about Bab, would you have been close to your abg angkat and then get to know Zahari? would you have? when you and Zahari were fighting and you felt like breaking up, did i just let it be or did i helped and tried to make things between you better? did i not send a msg every first date of each month to wish you both a happy monthsary!? have i not?!
i stopped all this when i got to know you really wanted me out of your life.

i stayed away.
i stopped disturbing you.
i stopped talking about you.
i stopped trying to think about us.

but even giving you what you want, me not being close to you.. you took away my bestfriend, you corrupted ppl's mindset about me..
i cant blame them, you are quite good at persuading and talking fucking craps about me to others. they were stupid to buy them.

but i only have one thing to clarify to these ppl whom SHE has talked to abt me,

WHY DO YOU AGREE WITH WHAT SHE SAID AND TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME?

no, don't bother apologising. i've forgiven you all. but i will never want you back in my life. the place that was once yours, is taken.
i replaced you. yes, i found someone better than you.
someone i know will stick with me no matter what people will say about me. cause she knows me well and she knows what i will do and what i will not. she knows me the way you NEVER did.

i will never get a cousin to replace you. but hey, having a cousin like you.. its better not having.

just fuck out of my life. talk about me all you want. just fo your info, i won't be spreading my thoughts to others.. whatever i hafta say, i have said it here in my blogpost.
open to EVERYONE EVEN YOU. i don't go behind ppl's back no more and bitch about them aite.

you wanna bitch, bitch upfront!
i can take you on wherever ok. you are nothing, without me. accept that!!
this is ego, this is the truth, this is reality that you kept denying.
learn to face it slut.

2006-12-01T18:52:00.000-08:00

hello.

guess woot. cc has their frist track recorded. yup. its up at BrandNewFeeling's & Crimson's myspace account. hope you guys love that song owaites! next song will be CC's very own Uniquely Met! yuppetty.
BNF BABY !!
CC's own MYSPACE acc is up too.. Do add! (=

LOVE

2006-11-24T20:10:00.000-08:00

HELLO.

ok, those who have curfew implied on you.. now i understand why sometimes you guys complain too much about me going out late. haha.

NOW, i haf a curfew of my own! Last week, had family talk la.. everyone in my family come together, the 6 of us and confess anything. My rents think I'm getting way too involve in what I'm doing that i forget my morals. -_-"
Well, its true lar.. A 15 year old girl always coming home at 11-12AM on Friday & Saturday Nights? Its not right. Even I know it.
So, they give me a curfew. Be home by 9.30PM! Or else, i'll be grounded for a month. Since its the holidays, I can't afford to break this rule tho I am a frequent rule breaker. sheesh!
There is NO way i am going to stay home all December! Na'uh!

*shakes head from left to right, slow motion*

Sorry Syugah! I know I said maybe I could go for the night trail tonight but, I can't go against my parents. Lying to them is a big no for me too. And besides, my family needs me more than this trail does. For God's Sake, we're still so young!! 14, 15! There will be another night trail like this in the future and I promise we'll go together ok? I'm really sorry bebs. LOVE LOVE <33

Aniwae, people dear people.. the name SERENADE is a combination of SARA + NAD(iah)
Its not just some random name ok? ;) and click on the hyperlink on my nick to get to know the real definition of it by Oxford. =] i am so hardworking. lol.
Well, by Cambridge.. Serenade also means "showing love". That simply describes me.
But don't confuse yourself. Showing Love doesn't have to mean I hafta love someone so dedicatedly. Being single and telling all that love is something i hate to love yet i love to hate won't stop anyone to show love, care and concern. Love is universal. =)

Its not just for a particular person. And if Y O U (make sure u're a guy) get into a relationship with me in the future. Don't ever think I love you more than I love anyone else. You just appeared in my life. My friends were there fo me even before you, they felt my love before you do and I will still, love them more than I will love my boyfriend.
Unless, you're my husband. tweets. SARA! stop it seh! you're only 15.

*but no sin to think beyond; lol*

ok, i guess i'll end it here for now. im going to Speakeasy @ Sg Arts Museum, Glass Hall.
Those going see you guys der.

ATI! HAVE FUN @ GASHOUS! =]

LOVE
serenade
xo

2006-11-24T11:29:00.000-08:00

hello.

here is a very random post. read if you want.
i am in love. with love itself, not you.
if you are looking fo a heartbreaker, i am here.
if you are looking fo a lover, i am NOT here.
currently not in the mood to be in any relationships.
i am suffering from fatal self obsession.
do not say I LOVE YOU to me, cause i'll be jealous. >:)
hence, be prepared fo a heartbreak!

i'll settle fo a nice low pro tralala to call my own when i feel like settling down.
i'll be playing with all the wrong ones till the right one comes.

its been awhile..

2006-11-19T16:14:00.000-08:00

hello.

had a terrible arguement with Syugah yester-nite. Its funny how things take a fall in a split second... yet; words succeeded in making things alright once again.
I realise that you don't have to be face to face to settle an arguement. If you truly feel what you say and you mean your words from the bottom of your heart, the person reading it will feel it too and won't misunderstand. Agree? You'll do in time.

Syugah, you don't need dimes to bling you up. You're a dime yourself. I love you little sister. =]

Ok, people people. Love this skin not? I DIG IT DIPPS MAYNE! haha.
Thanks Dee!
Well, well.. Dee. My bestfriend in primary school. Now, we may not be as close as before. Still hearts you dear. =]
You understand me well. But, yet.. OUR PARENTS DON'T LIKE US BEING FRIENDS! lol.
sheesh. tell ur mum i'm sorry aite. hehee. Thanks alot lot. Miss those time we snuck out and hit the neoprints. Haha. During fasting month, hantem ur house with McFlurry! Sembunyikan dalam bag aku den tumpah! habes!! sheesh. lol! Those were the times.. missin it. But whatever it is.. I'll always be your friend. Always.

People from Queensway. Haha. Yes Yes. Well, not all of you Queenswayans largh.

Azizah, Shaniz; more of my cousin than a schoolmate, Ina, Idah, Jannah & Aisyah.. you girls made me feel welcomed to Queensway. Yeah, I was the only one from Pioneer Primary. At least you girls know those others in the school. I was a total stranger. Thanks babes.
Azizah, great person to work with. Very hardworking eh! Yeeps! Next year, we classmates! JYEAH!! Happy aku. If not, I'll be the only girl siia. Wheewheets. =P

Shaniz, cousins we are. Miss those times when we share everything in mind. Saying out our true feelings about each other. I hate you. I really do. And I'm loving it. Good luck in your O's next year!
Ina, I don't know where to start. How to start. No matter how many post I write abt this. No matter how many wishes and prayers I say just to mend our friendship, it keeps failing. Worst by days.. Jalan raya? haha. We never did it this year. We're strangers once again. But against the odds, we were friends and I am blessed nuf fo that. Memories will remain. But please stop the acts. If you really do miss our times, gimme a holla and prove out your feelings. Was it something I did? Is it something I said? Did you hear from anyone about me that made you act up wen it comes to me? Whatever it is, I really loved our friendship. I hate it now.. I don't like it this way... Good luck in your O's next year! Give it your best..

Idah, haha. We never were close like we are to Ina, Aisyah, Jannah, Shaniz. WE never were.
Still, we do share gossips and stuffs. Sheesh. I miss those times don't you? Glad to know you and Ina are still close. But hey, me, Jannah & Aisyah would love to be among you both. We wanna be like we were last year. Last year was the best year I had so far... Good luck in your O's next year!

Jannah! Oii! Wanita nie.. Hope your relationship with Juma'at last long k? Sorry if ever fo aminute you think I wanna steal your boyfriend. He's a nice guy and he is just a friend. I treat him like an elder brother. =)

Yea, we joke around and I admit sometimes its too much. I wud be jealous too if I were you. But hey, we're young and we were having fun and laughter. He is irritating la!! But a good friend. =)

Let's team up and do well fo our N's next year aite? Love you babe. <3

Aisyah, my dearest chubchub. LOVE YOU MANY MANY !! You've been there with me through out my secondary school years. I thank you fo that. You're the one who listens to my everything. Your mum's tuna and cheese rocks my digestive system and taste buds mayne!! YES! HAHA. Well, next year we'll be seperated at everything DURING SCHOOL HOURS!

No sitting together in L2 class, no joking around in between classes. No sitting together at assb. Haiish. I'll miss you so so much. Promise never to depart k? I really wan you as a friend. Kid is a giler baby! haha.

Slept really late yesternight. Chat with Albert all the way till 4am! haha!

He recorded little voice clips fo me! So sweet. I love albert many². He's a great companion. Always around. Hehe. Ehh! My pp8 low urh, ltr aft i top up ardy riite, I send you sweet msgs k.. now cannot uh! But the yesterday msg abt Oprah & Stedman, Beyonce & Jay Z and Me & You is cool riite!! HAHA! I'm a smart girl.
Sad nuf, you're gg to NS!! WILL MISS YOU DUDE. ALOT ALOT. No one to chat with me till the sun comes up or at least till my dad wakes up and get me to bed. hehee. But eh! please get a mic before gg off k! >:)

Haiish. FRIENDS FRIENDS FRIENDS. How much I love em.. hehe.

Fatal, YOU ARE AN EXCEPTION! haha. Naah, so far. We are who we are from the day we met till this day on.. Thanks fo being true. =) Here's a picture of you!! CAN LAUGH MY ASS OFF MAN LOOKING AT THIS PIC!! LMFAO!

LOVE

`serenade

i am me

2006-11-11T08:42:00.000-08:00

helllo.
ok, since when have a post this long come from me? lets not back track.
i am super tired but i just cant get my eyes to close and give my body a rest. been gg out consecutively and its killing my muscles. having aches here and there. MUM! HELP!! haha.
aniwae, yesterday; 11 NOV was hella fun. Suhaimi and Mash really made me smile. Went to watch Step Up @ Cineleisure. We watched the 5.15PM show, so before the show.. we ate at LJS. YUM! hehee. The show was great!
After the show, we went to shop fo Mash's shirt at Bugis. I picked a nice suit fo him! YAY! Sara helped someone. hehe.
Thus, we went to Vivo to take pics. HEHE! Had hella fun larh.
Somehow, I even forget I had problems. Old friends, they're miracle workers. =) here's some pics of ourselves..

Hees. Dun state down that Mash looks like Taufik Batisah. So jelak of that ardy. =D

Today, went out with Syugah.. Boring la really. Cause seriously, had no mood to go out. Wanted to couch today but Syguah called at 2pm and asked if we're meeting. IF she asks, that means she wanna meet. Sheesh.
So, meet up with her at 4.30PM @ JE. Rain Rain like hell. That's the reason i felt so LAZY !! HAISH.
We went to City Hall. Bought CARAMEL FRAP from Starbucks. YUMMEH! sedapp seh.
Thus, we went to MS. Ate Lasagne! Another YUMMEH dish. haha. After eating, we went cam whoring at one of the escalators. pics turned out great.

Well, there's only one more thing to say. I'm single.
No questions. I'm only 15 & I believe I have a life to live and lead by myself.
I'm not letting Mummy's lessons to being an independent grown women go to waste... Sorry Mum, if you had that thought even for a minute whenever you got to know I was attached. =| I LOVE YOU MAMA! <33

LOVE
`serenade
xo

ps; my name is SARA NADIAH/SERENADE not SARAH NADIA nor AKEEM'S GIRLFRIEND neither OI. pls get it rite.

2006-11-04T08:10:00.000-08:00

2006-11-04T07:05:00.000-08:00

I've been tagged by Dee to do this quiz. So I'm fulfilling my duty. Nyahha!

You have to ask your 5 friends to do this survey on their blog .
Write down their names below.
Tag them in their blog to let them know and DON'T stop doing this survey.
This survey have been going around, it made people occupied.

Get started and the 5 lucky people are :
1. Syugah
2. Chaz Ali
3. Malina
4. Hani
5. Raudha

1. Single,taken or crushing?
_taken ;

2. Are you happy with your life now?
_ its not bad, happy? can say la ;

3. When you meet the right person, will you fall for him/her fast?
_ if its the right person then yah ;

4. Have you had your heart broken?
_ im only human. duhh! ;

5. Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating in love is acceptable?
_ never !! ;

6. Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats you?
_ uh huh. you wun get away with it ;

7. Have you talk to another person about marriage before?
_ uhh. the thought of it is cool la hey! ;

8. Do you want children?
_ jeeps!! (= yeeps. =P

9. How many?
_ 2? 3? ;

10. Would you consder adoption?
_ uh huh.. i will ;

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think he/she will do to let you know his/her feelings?
_ i dun care what he/she does. i wun even bother .. ;

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationship?
_ actually no. but am currently in one ;

13. Be honest. What did you and your ex did?
_ broke up with each other ;

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
_ noopes. ;

15. Are you romantic? Can you ask that to your future husband/wife?
_ whu is he? ;

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
_ changed afew! ;)

17. If you could marry somewhere, where would it be?
_ sumwhr luxury! weets!! ;

18. Do you easily give in when you're fighting?
_ ahas! wen my ego doesnt boils.. yah. ;

19. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
_ hehees. duh! ;

20. Have you ever wished you could have someone but you messed it up?
_ yaps. this is life mayne!

21. Have you broken a heart?
not A but countless. slamat hari raye eh! maaf zahir batin! =P
"quoted from DEE"

22. One day if your best friend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
_ the both of us wud let go. she'll know how i feel and i'll know how she feels. seeing her with the guy i love hurts deep. if she is my bestfriend, she wudnt wanna see me hurt. and vice versa lah.. ;

23. Are you missing someone right now?
_ faranisha! ;

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Nickname?
serenade. nuts.

Age?
peepthin.

Gender?
im a mix. lol! female.

Name of girls you love?
syguah, dee, dipz, wani!!

Name of boys you love?
fatal, akeem, albert, rauzan!!

Hugs or kisses?
XOXO!

Shower or bath?
flower bath.

Name three best friend from bestest to best.
you think im a primary sch kid eh?
100% - yadda yadda yadda
80% - bla bla bla ... OH PLEASE!

Name 3 enemies.
Polan, Pulen, Pilun ..

Favourite colour?
blck, white, red, green, purple, brwn

At what age you want to get married?
24 or 25..

Sports shoes or sandals?
sneakers pls!

Lake or ocean?
oceann!!

Ever kiss someone before?
yeps.

Ever hug someone before?
ahdhen..

death..

2006-11-03T21:07:00.000-08:00

So many people is leaving our lives fo good.. Who's next?

Why in the world did you have to go?
Wasn't all our happiness enough?
Didn't you have the best show?
How could one be so selfish?
I hate you when I think about it
There was an entire future ahead
Fate already has given you grace
Yet you just threw it all away...
I'd like to think a lot of times
That it never did happen
That you're still with me
That way I would love you again...
It was a fantasy I'd like to be in
If permitted, I'd be there everyday
I would meet you and fall and lay
on your lap forever to stay...
Still, there is still a world I live in
It is the truth of my reality once yours
The harshness and cruelty of life
There is still my set course...
Still, life must go on
And I must live on
However without you
Its an unfruitful dawn...
Though you may not be by side
And I will never ever see you again
Yet, just like everyone says, "You're alive
Forever dwelling in my heart and memory"...

To those who have lost their loved ones, I pray for your happiness and strength to carry on this war called Life till once again you're reunited with your loved ones..

tell me..

2006-10-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

CALLING CALLIN' NI!!
haha. well, if someone can tell me how to turn a pessimistic boy to an opimistic one.. PLEASE ADD ME UP IN MSN AND TELL ME HOW !!
that pessimistic person is a game addict at ten years old and his grades are falling..

Get back to me if you can help. thnks.

LOVE
`serenade
xo

__weeflife..

2006-10-22T01:30:00.000-07:00

Does the game people call LIFE have any rules...
In my opinion, it does. Say, karma. What you do onto others is what you get in return. Like an old saying, "Do onto others what you want others do onto you" this is something all of us have in mind at least once in our lifetime. Don't deny eh! Haha.
Its funny how karma hits on you. Most of the time, we fail to realize that a mishap that occurs to us is because we caused one before. To think again, sometimes we do realize.

Ever occurred to you, when something is about to finish you feel like giving up? Its stupid. When its not even done, we feel so engrossed. When its almost done, we feel like as if we don't wanna go on. For example, cleaning up a paint-tray, after use, we hafta wash off all the paint so the next time we use it, the paint won't mix. When we first wash it, we take off the easy part of the paint but when its almost clean, we leave it with a little bit of paint here and there on the tray. Why not clean it off as well? We've cleaned the big spots, what's the crime cleaning this bits? Funny isn't it the way human mind works..

What I don't get is that sometimes I find myself not being true to the words I say. Sometimes when I am so confident, it backfires. When I promised someone, something, sometimes time just makes my promise a fiasco. Its either something happens to me or to the person I made the promise to. Or maybe sometimes, it occurs to me that I know I don't wanna go out but I still get out of my house. Its like as if I'm not sure of myself even when I admit to others, I know myself inside-out. Fact is, I don't. Not yet.
Hey! I'm only 15! I've still got life. =)

LOVE
`serenade
xo

313 : 2oo6

2006-10-21T01:13:00.000-07:00

CLASS 313 of 2006! YIIPEEDIDOO!! Love this crazy class of mine!
Tho the fact there is only three girls out of 19 pupils in the class. (=
MATHANA RUBEN now in Pioneer Sec & GHAZALI now in Bukit Batok Sec !! I MISS YOO LAR!!
Aniwaes, here's a video of what happens in a small hyper class when the haze gets bad
and the class can't play soccer in the court...

Courtesy of the class chairman, Radi!
2006 was a hellaf a ride mayne! School was a blast!! Beginning of the year, we had lots differences,
soon, we tried to adjust to the environment and tried to fit into each other's lives.
Radi, he's been a great chairman to work with. But next year, I'm not goin to be the class vice chairperson agen!
Chairman is also a "NO-NO" fo me!! Maybe la.. But strong feeling, NO!
I love my class la except fo a few heads. uGh!
Daren, my Deelie; Cat! Haha. Thanks fo helping me in Math yah! ;)
Jumaat, bongok! LOLs!! =D Thanks fo helping me in Physics! YOU BETTER THANK ME FOR TEACHING YOU OTHER SUBS! =P
And thanks fo the times u hafta bully me. Hell yeh, we were so close. So close that even NUrul gets jealous.
=S Glad things are back to normal.
Nigel! FISH! haha. Cute la u. haha. Aniwaes; you'll get up to sec 4 la. You got 2nd in class wad Mid-Year!
Weii!! Thank me for getting high marks in DNT ok! HAHA! I helped alot in the project nyek!!
Isman! PALAT! PALAT! Nyahaks! Hey, thanks fo blanjaring me eh! =) thank u very nicee hor. ee! so chinese. haha.
Working with you on the DNT project was best la!
Patrick!! MY SPONGEBOB FRIEND! HAHA. You great artist. Great friend! Great peartner! haha. I want my Spiderman drawing k!=D
Sunny! You irritating idiot. Haha! Jasmine here and there. Love bite everywhere. HaiyoH! THen Sexualit Education,
so attentive !! LOLS! =) weii; congrats on getting A1 for Math! So dependent and ended up the highest.
Jeffrey.. you brat. What happened to you?! Change alot you noe!! But nevermind. Still can live with it. Met sumone more annoying than you.
Mustafa!! The most handsome indian guy in class. HAHA! You fool la you. Till now my Apple Tea isnt in my hands!!
Haha. You and Ismail always ask me to reason with Chua urh if you guys are absent. Haiss. Very irritating.
But, I'm sure I'll miss all this..
Ziqkrul! URGH! Don't even know where to start. If I can kill one person in the class, it'll be YOU! >=)
Well, mebe not la.. Mebe Qian Qi! NYAHAKS!!
WHERE BOON?! The geek who started the Digivice trend in class. LOLS. You la, Digimon here and there. Compo
also about Digimon!
Jeremy, you are. EAT EAT SLEEP SLEEP!! Hhaas. Promoted not? You tink?

The rest whom I did not mention, YOU GUYS GOT NO IMPACT IN THE CLASS!
You guys exsist or not doesn't matter. NYAHAHA!
Kidding, sorry yarh. Cnt think of an occasion you did that actually stucked in my brain. haha.
Love 313 of 2006. ;)

LOVE
`Serenade
xo

LIP GLOSS!!

2006-10-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

DIY: Lip-Gloss..

Well, well… Thanks to my Sheer, this topic came to mind. =] She is one addict to lip gloss. Let me tell you, she takes more than 5 minutes to perfect her gloss on her sexylicious lips. Ourgh! Those close enough to her, you'll understand what I'm talking bout. The time spent waiting for her to get done in the ladies can kill! Well, she isn't the only one. Most of my girlfriends have this love for lip gloss. So do I. I'm a teen and I know its hard to buy our own cosmetics sometimes. Don't worry now.. I can save you $10 each/every two months!! Make your own lip gloss girls! You'll need a microwave to do this.. Well here's what you need..

• Vaseline Lip Care [get the medium bottle or large if you want to make more]
• Vitamin E or Fruity Based Oil/Cream
• Used lipstick; the colour of your choice.[ if you want a clear gloss, you won't need this]
• Glitter
• Your favorite perfume scent

There you have it! Please remember to use plastic utensils. Washing away Vaseline is a torture! Trust me. Ok, here are the steps.

1. Scoop off the Vaseline lip care and put it in a plastic bowl. Place it in the microwave for 20 seconds. Do not over heat. Blowing up Vaseline is another torture. Its HARD TO CLEAN OFF!!
2. After 20 seconds, take out the melted Vaseline. Cut a portion of your lipstick using a plastic knife and (if you want clear gloss, skip this) add in 2 teaspoons(again make sure its plastic) of Vitamin E or Fruity Based Oil/Cream. Mix it using plastic spoon.
3. Add in the glitter as much as you want. But not too many because than you'll have glittery lips instead of glossy! Mix again.
4. Then, when the mixture is thick once again, give a spray of your favorite scent to your lip gloss to give it a nice smell.
5. Place this mixture in a nice little lip gloss holder, and place it in your refrigerator over-night.
6. Take it out the next day and there you have your very own made lip gloss!!

You can even make this and give it to your girlfriends as presents or door gifts for your all girl party! Enjoy!

DO NOT BLOW UP THE KITCHEN!!

Life..

2006-10-15T06:19:00.000-07:00

Does the game people call LIFE have any rules...
In my opinion, it does. Say, karma. What you do onto others is what you get in return. Like an old saying, "Do onto others what you want others do onto you" this is something all of us have in mind at least once in our lifetime. Don't deny eh! Haha.
Its funny how karma hits on you. Most of the time, we fail to realize that a mishap that occurs to us is because we caused one before. To think again, sometimes we do realize.

Ever occurred to you, when something is about to finish you feel like giving up? Its stupid. When its not even done, we feel so engrossed. When its almost done, we feel like as if we don't wanna go on. For example, cleaning up a paint-tray, after use, we hafta wash off all the paint so the next time we use it, the paint won’t mix. When we first wash it, we take off the easy part of the paint but when its almost clean, we leave it with a little bit of paint here and there on the tray. Why not clean it off as well? We've cleaned the big spots, what's the crime cleaning this bits? Funny isn't it the way human mind functions..

What I don't get is that sometimes I find myself not being true to the words I say. Sometimes when I am so confident, it backfires. When I promised someone, something, sometimes time just makes my promise a fiasco. Its either something happens to me or to the person I made the promise to. Or maybe sometimes, it occurs to me that I know I don't wanna go out but I still get out of my house. Its like as if I'm not sure of myself even when I admit to others, I know myself inside-out. Fact is, I don't. Not yet.
Hey! I'm only 15! I've still got life. =)

LOVE
`serenade
xo

Its smokin!

2006-10-14T10:07:00.000-07:00

Its Smokin'…
Yeah!! Now when we watch some channels on TV, let's welcome the new sign on the top left hand corner of the screen… The 'PSI ' !! Not only on TV, when you listen to Perfect 10, 98.7FM during Daniel Ong's show; you get the PSI updates every hour! It's the occasion where Indonesia shares their smoke with their neighboring countries. Lucky nuff, I live on the 02nd floor! I went to a friend's house, level 24, and I could actually see how hazy it is in Jurong! *sighs*

Lots are falling sick due to the smoke, either they have eye irritation, a cold or a cough .
Akeem & Haady is having the latter. Sleep early la fools!!
To add on, not much activities can be carried out. Some have plans to hike, sadly they hafta change their plans.

My youngest brother actually wrote this on his journal;
“ Dear Indonesia, why must you burn the trees? My mama said its good to share. But why are you sharing something bad? Please stop burning the trees…”
I'm blogging about this because of this entry he wrote in his journal. Its so unfair that Indonesia is burning the forest. Not only unfair to humanity but to nature as well. Its causing air pollution and it destroys the ozone layer. Also, it takes years for tress to grow! Can't they understand? I feel really sorry for them but sometimes I feel boiled up.

I perspire when I walk from my house to Lakeside MRT at 6.30AM to get to school! Whadda?! Its irritating!

LOVE
`serenade
xo

love

2006-10-13T17:30:00.000-07:00

Love…
Something made for everyone in the world. Unfortunately, it isn't fair to everyone. Agree? Well, I'm not blogging about this because my love life sucks. Actually it's been nothing but a great one! Thanks Akeem! =) The reason I'm blogging is because the people around me keep having problems about their love life. No one is particular…
Why is it that some die too young that they don't get the chance to have someone special in life? Why is it that when some falls in love, it backfires? Why must love be something made with so many sacrifices?
Yes, love is about give and take. Yes, love is something meant to feel. No words in the latest Oxford Dictionary (or any of 'your own' dictionaries for that matter) can define love.
Its just like a work of art in your heart. Something you can admire and something you can only feel. You can express love in beautifully crafted words but it will never come out the way you really want it too… Why is it sometimes like this? Its not fair is it?
Its part and parcel of life I guess.. It's a stage everyone gets to feel; either from their family, friends or even someone special.
Let me tell you a story of a 12-year-old girl who is very pretty. Unfortunately, its heartbreaking to know that a car accident actually rips her away from her life. She never got a chance to love someone special. She never got a chance to share her stories. She never got a chance to snap some pictures with a boy. How unfair right?
I know it's wrong to actually talk about this. I know that this is all God's will but you can't stop a human's mind from asking and trying to clarify her doubts can you?
To those who actually feel like as if you're unwanted and un-cherished. You have to know that not everything is turns out the way you want too. Its either you're too young or too old for someone. But please, never underestimate yourself. There is someone, somewhere out there made especially for you and maybe, just maybe you're a late bloomer in love. Be patient. Like a badge I read on a schoolmate's bag; "I'm playing with all the wrong ones while waiting for Mr. Right" Don’t get me wrong, I'm not trying to ask you to toy around someone's heart but just try to love. Try to understand some others before you come down to a conclusion that you wanna settle down with that somebody.
Plus, don't blame God for making you the way you are. The grass is no greener on the other side. You're a beautiful thing and you have to appreciate yourself before you can get others to see you the way you want them too. View yourself the way you want others to view you. Respect yourself. You don't have to act like someone else just to get someone.. Being true to yourself is all it takes. If that someone truly loves you, he/she will accept and adjust to your environment. Now that's when the commitment comes in. =)
And like Akeem said, not everything happens when you want it too. Welcome to life!

LOVE
`serenade
xo

i miss

2006-10-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

this people crossed my mind as i was about to sleep. then, tried to close my eyes; their faces appeared one by one.. and i realise that, I really really really do miss em much..

INA : the one who was always there fo me in sec 1. Miss the times we gossip and giggled behind the books in the library. Miss the times we took neox and argued hu takes which piece.. :) now; you're a head prefect but i still see MY ina whenever i see yoo doing you're duties. im glad i was part of your life.. <33 u beb.

IDA : haha. even tho we arent so close. Whenever Ais, Ina, Jannah and Me hung ard.. you are always part of us. We were the Famous Five. Miss those times. dunchu?
well, so sorry didnt get you a bdae press this year. =S

DEE : this monster here. gud to noe you've kicked away that huge "sayangness" to food you once had when you were 12! haha. Everytime we went out, you'll be buying snacks and food everytime we pass a shop. haha! now, we're all grown up. 15 ardy. eh, kau blom! haha. long time since we hung out together..and abt the huge fight we had last year, lets just erase it or smaller the font and move on k? P.s: MUST BUKE TOGETHER TAU!

DIP : thanks fo d Esprit bag. hehee. sorry if i dirtied it or nthing. and thanks fo being der fo me when things were rough sailing btwn me and dee. owe u one beb! haha. miss gossiping witchu! tall girl! ahha. well; now you haf a BF, bes of luck in the relationship grl! ;) BUKE TOGETHER!

YANA : my another gossip partner. haha. wenever we're together; dip will surely be ard so our gossips are tight with one another. BUKE TOGETHER!!

HANIS : OUH MY MY! You're so grown up now. And sad to noe you're into stuffs we never thought we would do. I'm sorry i cudnt b der fo you when things took a turn. But hey, lighten up! At least you're still alive. Enjoy the good moments till it last and don't qns it. (: gd things dun last. guess tts why our frenship turned a lil sour back then.. lol! aniwae, miss those times when you cumover and we cooked together with my mum's help. Your family still asking fo my mum's fried bayam? haha.

FITRI : KAK!! thanks hottiee! thanks fo teaching me when you were still in QWSS. till now I remember the way you thought me to remember concave and convex. w/o you i think i'll have to squeeze my brain wenever it came to physics! ahaks. hope you were still in QWSS to coach me. =)

HAZIM : I noe that you will never read this. But I'm happy God is witchu and you're safe up there. Luekemia was our biggest war. I'm sorry. Ur mum and dad misses you loads. Now, as Syawal approaches, your memory bcums heavier. I still remember the way you stood up fo me when those guys were bullying me.. haiis. Pls help us thru Hazim.. and I still love yoo.. :(

ASYRAF : tho our relationship took a very coarse tumble.. i want you to noe im still here fo you when you need someone to talk to. I noe we've had lots of misunderstandings but after 5 years knowing each other.. I can list your everything from A to Z.. I miss you looking deep in my eyes with your golden brown eyes.. I miss the times you tought me break-moves. thanks asyraf, fo making my childhood a colourful one.. love yoo!

ICE : maseh pendek kau eh!! haha. i still haf the note you wrote during MT Period.. "Frens Forever" hehe.!! Hw sweet!

NORAINI :YOU! whenever we meet, there will be a fight. still remember the day under Mdm Yanty's block during raya. that fight was, OUCH. It hurts.. But glad we get it off our back and moved on.. (: For 11years, we've went thru life noeing each other exsist.. Now is the time I wanna thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

SHIKIN :girl!! I miss sharing my very very personal stuffs wit yoo.. You were the only one whu cud relate it truly. Haiss. Guess time really flies faster these days..

NAJ : NAJIHAH! miss ya. i soo miss your mum's soto !! during hari raya, w/o fail! MUST EAT! haha. WEll, the Graduation Performance was a night to remember huh? Yeah.. It was a blast. And thanks for making things easy while I was trying hard to be an A-Student while doing my duties as a prefect..

FARA : WHERE ARE YOU?! huh?!?! WHERE ARE YOU??! Any Fara out there, 15 years old..usta live @ Jurong West NTI, had a childhood fren named Sara Nadiah. We changed Spelling Book once and we met infront of my block to swap it back. Anybody with such childhood with the name Fara, pls contact me. I MISS YOO!!!

LILY : ouh idiotic neighbour. haha. miss you laa.. the giler giler times we had. the day i caught you red handed not fasting in Primary school.. haha. BUt now, I have no idea what you are going thru in life.. best of luck girl, whrever u are.

CHONG MING : im wondering if you can read this.. if you do then, I'd like to let you know.. You're still my fave buddy!! hehee!! our time together were awesome and im glad you aced your PSLE better then some of your classmates back in 2003.

AKEEM ; Fatal ; Syugah : Oh! Need I say more? You guys are a bunch of great monkeys!! hehee!!

Ouhkay. Off to bed now. I feel lods better. (:

random blogging

2006-10-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

im just bored.
Patrick just told me that I passed my Math. Sunny got highest!! fagging idiot. haha.
aniwae.. im ending my day with this post la. nid sum rest. still feeling lethargic from yest work. PENAT! haiis.

tomorrow is my Bio paper, followed by Physics; the final paper on Tuesday!
no school on Wednesday & Thursday. Cnt wait till then.. but on second thought, everytime holidays are around the corner; i cnt wait fo them to start. When it starts, i cant wait fo it to end. Typical. Well, Friday is the results to my papers.
Then, i'll be hitting Esp fo performances by BS Artiste. Be there guys.. (:

Hmmm.. how do you feel when you like someone else when you know you are with someone else? Guilty rite?
Well, its not something I wish to blog about. I'll try to get it off my back.
(:

LOVE
`serenade
xo
gdnytes.

names..

2006-10-08T05:39:00.000-07:00

hello peeple.

lemme share sumting witchu...
from now on,

Rauzan BNF is now timun-ketam!

not forgetting wad Maryline told me..

Richard J is now Richard "Lazy" Jansen!

gawd.
lame shud be my middle name...

its just another day

2006-10-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

ever wish you're invinsible?
yea, we need sympathy from others sometimes but look, with this qns, its sympathetic!
we know that its impossible, why even bother thinking bout it..

once i said that i love everyone but now i realise i don't.
last two days was something that shudnt happen; i cnt seem to erase it from my memory
its just there to remind me of my tempremental side.
getting hit is not on anyone's wishlist.
bleeding is no exceptional to it..
the internal bleed is what hurts the most;
and more.. if its external and internal.. time is all you have to heal it.
not anyone in the world can help you.
you hafta bring yourself together to heal yourself. only you know yourself best.

dun tell me things are gon be ok.. cause i noe my life is a mess and it wun be ok any sooner.
dun tell me it will.. cause i noe myself better than you know me.

room makeover!!

2006-10-07T10:44:00.000-07:00

im EXHAUSTED!! yes, i am! woke up at 8am, watched TV fo an hour.. When mum woke up, I started clearing out the stuffs in my room to paint it. Syugah was suppose to help out yesterday but she didnt turned up. nermind. so, i did it today larh..
I moved the stuffs out and the started painting. My room was pink, now its blue! hehee. actually, wanted to paint it lavender. but, not enuf paint(in tight financial situation-so didnt buy new tins) aniwae, after painting the whole room; i realised i missed a spot!! haha, so painted the leftover and went to take my first shower for the day! At 10.30pm!! HAIYOH!! i was perspiring like giler! my hair was in a bun and i had almost zillions of clips on before i put on a bandana(btw, i look like a minah malaysia if i put it on) haha! but, wat to do? didnt want any dust particles or paint on my hair/scalp.
Well, thanks to my dearest godbrother, Samsir and my wonderful parents and 2 lil brothers, i finished the whole room makeover by 11pm!! GILER KAN!? a room, takes a whole day.. noe why? bcz, i had stuffs in the room to be polished, cleared, thrown out, bla, bla, bla.. So tts the reason i'm so lethargic!

well, i hafta get some rest. haf to wake up fo sahur tmr. another long day tmr.. meeting Rezzo to gif him, his BAG! ahah. funneh story to that bag. mebe i can spend a lil more time telling u guys bout it..

[REZZO'S BAG]
Once upon a time, Rezzo, Kak Izza, Crimson Coalition & my brother, Khalil went to watch a movie with Rezzo's fren(whom i do not noe of) at the Padang. Half thru the movie, Kak Izza gotta get home before she breaks curfew. So, Rezzo sent her back. WE all thought he was coming back as he left his dear bag at the Padang. Then after an hour, he wasnt back yet. So, Rezzo's fren called him. Surprisingly, he admitted he forgot to bring home his own bag!! LOL! haiss.
So, Syugah bought his bag home. She had Teenage Icon Finals the nex day. Rezzo sed he'll be there. But he didnt show up. So i had to bring home HIS bag. till this day, the bag is still here.
[THE END]

haha. well, the bag misses its owner and i've tried my very best to persuade it to stay with me(mcm real!) but it turned out to be a fiasco. wat to do.. =P
meeting akeem tomorrow! =D miss him many-many! haiis, the day after tomorrow is my Bio Paper then on Tuesday its Physics and NO SCHOOL ON Wednesday and Thursday. On Friday!! PSYKES PERFORMING @ ESP!! YAHOO!! Saturday, double/triple movie date!! yes yes yes. luking fwd to a great week!

TO SYUGAH
grl, glad to noe u had fun! do well fo d exams k baby! and, if Khalid(or however its spelled, pardon me if its wrong) ever breaks ur heart which i hope he won't cz u've been thru enuf, tell me aite? i'm still here and till the day i die, I will be here fo u wenever u nid me aite.

LOVE
`serenade
xx

you tested my patience..

2006-09-08T19:45:00.000-07:00

hey! if you're the kind of person who doesn't like it when a sister critics her elder brother then i suggest, you don't read paragraph of this post. =)
KHALIL BAILED ON ME
FAGG LARH!! ok, this paragraph will haf some vulgarities. I'm sorry. >=/
idiot larh.. he called me up at 8pm. He was @ Yishun and he didnt haf nuf money to go home. EZLINK da kosong..so he decided to take a one bus trip down to esplanade, where i was with CC and Akeem. So, i waited and waited and waited till 11pm! He never did show up!! Well, i couldn't wait any longer.. my fren's gotsta get home. I do too. Cmon, im nt the girl who lepaks overnight at some place outside. Its a different thing if its camping or sleepovers. But, waiting fo Khalil till wenever he'll show up down at Esp?! NA'UH! So, me, CC & Akeem walked to the MRT station. I know i'm gon get hell of scolding from me rents for coming home late. So, i was getting ready for it. Then, when I got home. Opened the door, entered the house. My dad was still awake, as usual. BUT, that wasn't the issue that drives me up the wall at 12 midnight!! When i placed my shoe in the shoe rack and walked 3 steps fwd, I could see my 3rd Hall.. KHALIL WAS SEATING INFRONT OF THE COMPUTER!! WHADDA fag larh!! he bailed on me like that?!??! dun even noe how to CALL and told me that he is at home ardy?!?! MADE ME WAIT ?!?!? IDIOT PANTAT GENDENG TROOT! Then, I salam my dad, he questioned me like as if i was a crime suspect. i explained to him. and he said I was making up stories! I am officially banned from going out on FRIDAYS till school's out this year! Cheesbun! uRgh!! K, that was already driving me nuts. When I finished weashing up..I wanted to use the phone. Khalil was using the computer chatting with Izuan and he was ON THE PHONE WITH IZUAN ALSO! Tk carik pasal ker tuh!? He noes I wanted to use the phone. then he sengaje. Butt* btol. ERGH!!!! Cn't wait till end of the month.. if he doesn'tpay up $1200 to settle his M1 bill.. he's going in. URGh! Imagining life without him at home is something I wish will happen NOW! Wads d difference of having him around aniwaes? He doesn't crawl his ways in school anymore, he doesn't do housechoes neither! All he does is wake up at 3-4pm, eat, go out or watch TV, talk on the phone, sleep, wake up repeat his routine.. That's wad he does EVERY SINGLE DAY!! Sometimes, he doesnt even come home wen he goes out! So, having him around is the same as not having him around. Idiotic moron.
Sucha problematic child. I give up on that idiot.

ESCAPE WAS HELLA FUN
YES YES!! HELL OF FUN! Pris Lim and Ho, Syugah and Afiq is a crzy bunch of monkeys.
Thanks fo giving me great fun guys. =) Thanks to Teenage Icon i met this great ppl. But Syugah is another matter larhh... Syugah got all drenched in "wet & wild" . Haha. TWEES!

CONFIRM SYGUAH AND SERENADE ARE SHEERZ
I lost my EZLINK at Pasir Ris before I arrived at Escape. Hhee! And Syugah realised that her EZLINK was mising wen we were going home from Esp!! LOLs!! Cnt believe we lost out EZLINK on the same day! Sheerz meant to be.

`serenade
xo

sweets!!

2006-09-02T10:55:00.000-07:00

hey.
Freaky Z's The First Draft is out jiggers! Go get it!! Its nicee mayne!
"Kata Orang" was great. Fun Fun. Met Akeem! hehee. Saw BIG EYES! YeSyeSSah!!
Had lots of laughter today too. Hahaa. Yep2. Sorry yarh Fatal fo spiiting that coke on ya. =)
Haiish. Tomorrow recording canceled. Hais!!! fagg larh. furst 2pm, den 7pm den postponed to Monday! pantat lah. haiss.
Ok, i really need to slip now. Tekaiire people.

`serenade
xo.

TRUST

2006-09-01T20:08:00.000-07:00

hey!
yesterday is truly indeed a very much i call laughing day! CRAZY FUN MAYNE!!
imagine, u're in a train with a maniac(tts me) who laughs all the way from Tanah Merah station to City Hall! WHADDA?! LOLs. Yeah, i noe. I didnt haf to do my sit ups yesterday! my muscle were so tight it could burst as i was laughing. Thanks to Fatal and his "MA". LOLs! I laughed and laughed. I mean usually, they say if you laugh too much, you'll cry later. But NO! I proved tt sentence wrong yesterday! I didn't cry before I laugh yesterday. Neither did I after. ghaha.
crazzy larh! but seriously, i wud like yesterday to repeat itself. like cool lidat.
yessh. =)

kayy, actually.. we went out to talk abt my problem. decided to talk over an ice cream larh. but then, syugah wanted to watch Anuh play his match @ ITE Simei. So, we took the MRT. Dropped @ Simei station but didnt go to the ITE cause I didnt want to. Got all the mamats. No no. So, the funny thing me and syugah found out was.. There is no MacDonald's at East Point!! haha. So bought Old Chang Kee fud.. and went to Tampines fo Ice Cream @ MacDonalds. We met Fatal der too. This one another funny story!! HAIZ. Fatal was at the platform at the same time as me and syugah. We went down the same esalator and we were 3 platforms behind him. When he made a turn to tap out the station.. he didnt see us! So we surprised him by the side. He was so shocked!! He went like: "Whaddee!? - and wen he saw it was us, -ouhkay..hello!" with that stoopid cupid blur face plastered on! LOLs. So pretentious!
Anyway, we went to makan McFlurry @ Mac and we talked things out. After an hour, we proceeded to Esp to chill out. Tats wen I laughed and laughed and laughed non stop.!! HEHE!!
crazzy larh this grl here yesterday. haiiz.

hmm.. wad else. Yess!! 31stAugust.. met my Primary School peeps. Sumer da besar2 seyy. da seluar panjang.. miss ur bulu mann!! GHAHA! lurve u guys deeps larh. go BBQ sumtime aite. =)
the teachers are also dead fun. haiis. makes me feel like going back to Primary School agen. make me feel like taking PSLE agen. hahass.
gtg now. tekaiire

`serenade
xo.

any pics calling fo edits?

2006-08-26T23:39:00.000-07:00

Yes people. If you want your pics to be editted, please send them to baby_serenade@e-garfield.com Sorry but, my hotmail acc is not working. I can't open my inbox for shitness sake! URGH! irritating bastard.
Here are a few of my edits.

Single pic edits are possible too..

Do bare in mind, you're not the only one im editting pics fo.
No, i'm not charging. But may consider! winks. hehee.
Please take note, if you send me ur pics this week, you'll get ur editted pic next week.

`serenade
xo.

and it all went fine

2006-08-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

hey!
hmm.. sorry i couldnt update yesterday. was too engrossed chatting with Albert, Young, Richard, Lily, Frankie, Fatin, and much much more. LOLs!
basically what happened yesterday was, in the morning, went to eat breakfast with my family at Jurong East. Then went to meet Syugah @ the interchange at 2.30pm to proceed to Far East to meet Fatal & Farid who never did show up till 5.15pm! uRgh! When Fatal & Farid arrived at last, we walked to SG Art's Museum fo SPEAKEASY!! hehee. yup yup! IT WAS GREAT GREAT! noe why? coz Psykes & Rich performed! wakaka. even tho both performance wasnt all perfect. dey still ma dopest! SMUCKS SMUCKS!
Psykes EP cuming out! YAY! Yest was also Krazie Starr's EP launch. Congrats yarh giler bintang! (=
hmm..yeh. Richard got his pressie. Luckily the size was just nice. it was a M, i almost wanted to get him a S. thanks to Fatal, i didnt! and thanks to Albert fo telling me whr to get the kind of tshirt Richard wants. =D
NOT FORGETTING! It was so nice of Akeem to write me a verse and gave me a prest. so touched. =) thanks darls. lurve u new baby of BS!! <33 sorry i wasnt listening during the open mic session! ghaha.
Ouh, yes.. Rauzan's song to his late uncle is bloody tootily DOPE! was feelin it mayne. yes yes!! NICE NICE!!
After speakeasy, we went to Esplanade to chill at the memo. haha. Sheerz completed the Ciara's Ish song chorus. DOPE MAYNE! ehhee. nice larh. den we shared jokes and laughters. it was crazy larh. Khalil was telling a joke that he couldnt finish cause it was REALLY REALLY REALLY LOOOOOOOOONG! =) wei! tk penat ke mulot kau tuh?
at 10.52pm, we waled to 7-11 to buy my DONUTS!! YUMMEH YUMMEH!! those my faves morning, noon, evening, night snack. YES YESSAH! im craving fo em rite now. shitzers.
then, we went home on the train. Akeem went on the red line twds Jurong East, the rest went on the green. Of course, Fatal & Farid went towards Pasir Ris. in the train oso got dope story seh! theres this bunch of mamats larh. One of them was hyperactive and super friendly!! MADE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF MAYNE!! haish!
after the long day. we reached home finally! best la yest! shit syugah never bring camera!! HUMPF!

`serenade
xo.

great time mayne !!

2006-08-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

hey.
Now now. The finals was a blast lahh. GREAT PERFORMANCES!
Congrats to Ming, Adib & Pris fo getting the top 3 prizes!!
Syugah got consolation. =) Ebi and the rest too.
Wads RNB without Ebi? LOL. Nice wordplay Ebi!
Well, Syugah has her track, I Will Survive recorded. You can PM me next weekend fo the song. Or ask from Albert J. =)
I gtg now. Schooling tmr..
Cheerios.

Love,
Serenade

tears on my pillow; pain in my heart

2006-08-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

hey!
Feeling so tired. Urgh!! A whole day with my elder brother, Khalil, can truly kill!! Urgh!
Hes gt friends EVERYWHERE. I realli mean EVERYWHERE. (= tsk3. liike weird noe. Aft so many years, today was the day I spent THE WHOLE DAY WITH KHALIL !!
Woke up, wanted to go for ngaji but late ardy so didn't bother. Waited till noon, 12plus and then went to Nova Furniture Store with M U M, Khalil & lil brother, Haady to check out a new wadrobe fo me!! YAY! XD Then aft tt, ard 1pm; we made our way to Queenstown to meet Fatal, then we went to Grace Assembly of God to collect me Bursary Award. yess!!
Afta that, went walk2 fo wadrobe and mattres at The Green House. DAMN!! There's this one matress; DOPE GILER BABY! NICE NICE NICE!! If tt bed was mine; i won't attend sch on time. =) yes yess. twees* ;)
survey2.. den decided to ask D A D to come along the nex time. He's the man fo furniture thingys. Hehee. Soo, then we sent M U M & Haady at the bus stop cause they wanna go home. Then, me, Fatal & Khalil proceeded to town. Met Rezzo at HMV. Chill out der fer awhile. Den I met up with Syugah and afew Teenage Icon Finalist @ Cineleisure. Then, ard 7+ went to Wisma to watch Zul perform. DOPE LAH THAT GUY! hehees.
Then; aft tt.. went with khalil, fatal, akeem and his company to LJS go sapederk. Khalil wanted to go to Esp, so aft chilling at YP while waiting fo Rezzo and his grl, Izza. Wen they arrived; we went to Esp and chill at the Padang to watch X-Men 3. GAWD! I lost count on how many times I watch that show. Hehee.
Syugah joined us half way thru the show.. It ended at 11.30pm. So; had to rush fo the last train. Syugah took the NE Line straight away cause she worries theres no train @ JE. So, I was left in the train alone with Khalil wen we went home. Fatal lives in Pasir Ris pe.
Haiish. Met Mubarak in the train.. MAHGAWD. among all others.
herrm. NOW NOW. im feelin so lethargic. havent had nuf rest nowadays. So, im going off now. Take Care peeps. Not forgetting, later today.. Syugah will be performing @ Jurong Point (Boon Lay Int). Show kicks off at 7.30pm. Try not to be late so you won't miss her performance aiite? Please attend if you're free. Plus, plus.. please support her efforts. Her CD sellin at $5 per disc. Please make ur purchases aiite? See ya der tmr!!

aiite. take care. niite. till tmr. =)
xx Serenade.

PS: I met asyraf @ Heeren and he pecked me. WTF. URGH!!!!!!!! Why everytime wen im attached. dn shower me with guilt pls lah ash. i did love u but u were MIA and i hafta move on. im sorry. =(

Wicked Saturday !!

2006-08-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

Hey. Here I am. Hrrm; the day today start of great. Woke up early; got ready to go out. Waited fo Syugah fo 15minutes at Yew Tee MRT then we went to Wdlnds where we waited fo Fatal before heading to the CC. When we reached the CC, the show has kicked off. Haiis. Missed the beginning. But at least; I didn't miss Abg Azhar's performance!! He damn dope lah he! RP ROX!
Met Akeem darls there. Crimson Coalition was hype! LOLs. The show was okok. It gets boring in the middle cause it was too long. Very mendak u noe. Some of the dancers oso like, DEAD! So, peduli em lah. The emcees, some of em. Rapping to emselves. Either it was the mic or its just them. Psylence was great!! Solo rapper and he did his thang!! WHOA!! Respect that man. LOLs.
Well, Abg Azhar's dance group came in 2nd fo the dance cat. Yup. They were DOPE! No doubt. His crew, Yeabah! is joining "The Dancefloor". And he is joining, "The Wade Robson's Project" solo. BEST OF LUCK ABG!
Afta the whole thing, Public Eyez, Psykelecticz, Rich, Rau, Zul, DSC & Da Fam performed. BUT, Akeem didn't. I don't mind. At least, I gotsta meet him. But; he was bumped out. Having preparing fo the performance and then gotta noe in the end.. he cant perform bcz of the time constrain! Haiish. Don't worry darls. You've got slots waiting fo you kay sweets?
So then, the whole thing ended. Abg Azhar sent me home on his motorbike. WOW! My first time riding a motorbike. Hehee. FO REAL! Tonight was the first nite in my entire life! At first, it was scary. I hugged Abg as he rode off. Then along the highway..felt comfortable ardy. I loosened up. Then when we reached Corporation Rd, I found myself holding onto his back. LOLs!! Thanks abg!! Love ya lotss!
Hrm, guess till here urhh. Need to sliip. Had a lot of fun today. Cheerios. =)
xx Serenade.

nuff said.

2006-08-11T17:04:00.000-07:00

Hey. Heres a long post mind you..
First up, today..Meeting Akeem !! YAY! hehee. Da Shocase II @ Wdlnds CC, 2pm-10pm. Pls do cum dwn. Tix @ $3, at the door. =) Haiish. Still havent decided on what to wear larrh! Syugah's just as confused. Fatal? Err, nvermind. That fella's sliiping since yest nite!! Whadda. Screw it, lets move on.
Second thing, Sheerz. This is the main cause fo the length of this post. Look; wud you like it if you have someone in your clique claiming she loves you but starts saying she hates you when your nose aint in her face? Yea. Who does?
Now, Yza.. You claimed its a long old story never meant to be talked about. But hey, it was tt long story that's causing the situation to be like this. I've had best friends who've left me. But I don't get the words saying, they hate me. Neither have they swallowed their affections. You, on the other hand was shitting 'bout me and Syugah LAST TIME? Look, LAST TIME; me and Syug was really happy when you admitted you are a SHEER. At that particular moment; you went to tell Fatal that YOU HATED SYGUAH!? Wake up larh! You were 15 back then; you were acting like a 5 year old kid. You were very sensitive, always wanted to be pampered. Cmon, you're not living Gucci live here ok! People commit mistakes. Its all a lesson to be learnt not something you can blame upon!! You were fighting with Fatal tat day for no reason, Syugah was pissed! She called me up. I felt furious cause you promised you won't be ultra sensitive no moh but i felt guilty cause I wasn't there to make things better fo SYGUAH. Syguah complided the courage to talk you into reality. She TALKED RUDELY TO YOU! That is so not her. But why did she do it? It was because, she didn't want other people to keep the lies going on about you. betcha don't know that rite?
Anyway, she was trying to wake you up that night. But then, after she went home.. You told Fatal, "Sampai hati Syugah marah i gituh sehh u.." WHAT THE FAG!? It wasn't her fault. If I was in her shoes. I'd have slapped your face. Seriously. Ain't kidding. Sheerz no Sheerz. I've spit my shit to Syugah directly and I apologised. I did that IN HER FACE. I didn't diss her from behind. Unlike you.
After that day; Syugah had a date with Asrizal. You lend her your camou blazer. RELUCTANTLY. But; hafta admit. You put up a good mask! Well done. *2 thumbs up!*
Syugah was indeed very happy you were there fo her make up and all. But, a few nights after.. I was on the phone with Fatal and he told me that YOU told HIM that YOU HATED SYUGAH. I told Syugah. She confronted you, back then. After that, things were aite. Time pass.. my birthday was great. Thanks yah. Then came yours. This is wen the situation exploded. Your secrets were revealed. Your true colours have shown. The fake dyed you put out has shedded. The pigment underneath is visible. You broke up with Fatal. I know, it was wrong fo him to like another grl and having her picture in his hp wasn't making things better. But look, DO YOU DESERVE HIM AS MUCH AS HE DESRVES YOU? HELL NO!! Both of you are better off with someone else. I was trying to voice my point. But nope. You didn't get it. I thought you were convinced that You Are Not Meant To Be With Him wen i told you so. But, wen you wanted to break up with him, you decided not to wen you look at him. WTF!? Cmon larh! PLEASE! Since it was so hard trying to convince you, I talked to Fatal and get some sense in place. He understood and soon admitted that he did have feelings fo another grl.. I WASN'T THE CAUSE HE LIKED THAT OTHER GRL! Then, now.. I got to know YOU HATE ME! wonderful news! *twist* Fatal told me you hated me bcz you were jealous I am close to Fatal. Hes a foolish younger brah fo God's Sake! I love him, I do. Its not wrong to love others. Start loving not hating. Get that? I love him. I love Syugah. I love Akeem. I lovED you. And the other reason you hated me was beacuse you thought I was encouraging Fatal to go on with that other girl rather than you. Whatever. These reasons were told by Syugah and Fatal themselves. Who admitted you DID say you hated me. And YOU also said so, that you hated me. The reason YOU gave me.. cos you thought I hated you! GIVE ME ONE GOOD REASON TO HATE YOU BACK THEN!? Well, now. I have all the reasons in the world to do so. I don't wanna add salt to the wound since you don't wanna bring up the old story. So I ended things there and then. But... You said I just want to leave the situation like tt without understanding it. All I care is about me, syugah and fatal. Hey prick! Tell me how am i to understand the situation if you don't want me to understand it in the first place?!? So stop the drama. YOU ARE THE ONE FULL OF DRAMA.
Just keep a look out on a new song thats dedicated to you. You had Uniquely met.. Another one is coming up...far from Uniquely Met.
Ok, now. Third thang up. I GOT $450!!!!! Tralala-lala-la-long!! YAY! hehees. Finally; can but tt Celtic Jersey & Celtic Flat! HAH! That Pony shoes! Yess! Collecting the $$ on 19th August. Wan follow? Hehee. Happy-ness. LOLs.
Well, Syugah's finals cuming up! Better make yaself free on 20th August to witness her perform "HOT STUFF" @ Jurong Point. Details will be given nex week aiite. Then, cuming up also.. Rich's burfday! Yea man! Getting you a stripped brwn and white polo tee. Like Rau's!! So, don't ask anyone else to get it fo ya!! I'm going KL on 26th Aug, will get you that pressie there. So you'll be like the only one in SG wearing tt tee. Hahass. Cool not? Yurrp. *winks* Yeah; then since on the 26th Aug I'll be in KL, i won't be down fo this month's Speakeasy. Aiiseh. Tsk. Nermind. Going KL with Mommy.. Noe go KL fo wad? Look fo spirits! I'm getting the shivers like NOW! hahas. Didn't wanna go at first. Mum begged. haha! Wad a daughter I am, making my mum beg. I'm so mean. =S Then after the search, going SHOPPING!! and then visit a recording studio and drama sets. Wheep! drama sets are so my thangs! bring back all the memories bout KLIK! & Watch Eat! The two shoes I acted in last 4 years. hehee.
Well, ok. Till here. I gtg now. Don't wanna be late fo Da Shocase II. Still hafta copy down "Blood On Paper" lyrics fo Cash. Duin him a favour larh. Aite. Take Care. Till next week. Or, maybe tomorrow. Hrm. I'll update about the gig today aite. Hee.
Lurve yas.
xx Serenade.

Urgh. The feeling of lethargic-ness.

2006-08-05T11:55:00.000-07:00

Heyy people. Its the beginning of a new week. Tomorrow schooling; hafta complete D&T Project! Its not even half way done. Shitzess. Presentation tmr sumore!! Hw cud Ms Kaur give us a big project notice only a week before deadline?! Crazy foolness driving me insane. Tsk3. Anyway; yesterday was a colourful day fo me. Woke up at 10.30pm. Then did the daily routine. Got ready at 2pm and made my way to Jurong Regional Library to meet up with Nigel, Isman & Patrick to put our project together. Promised to meet at 2pm. They arrived an hour late and all of us were hungry. Stop by LJS at Jurong Entertainment; spent abt 30mins den we went to the lib to start our project. Soon nuff, ticks and tocks. It was 5pm. Isman had to go Woodlands fo family stuff. Nigel didnt wanna go home alone; so he went with Isman. Patrick is always together-gader with Isman. So all three guys went off. I was alone in the Children's section of the lib duin the project. After an hour liddat. Decided to pack up and head home. Otw home I met my elder brah's fren, he told me Khalil was goin fo some Jackass thingy dwn at Esp. I went home; told my mum. Then she instructed me to go dwn Esp with hope of finding my brah there. Reached der and guess woot!! MILLIONS OF PEOPLE BEB! Urgh. Among them was my ex, Ramdan..B, Hafiz CrazieStar, Zie, Azrin & Friends, Abg Abri and his grlfren, Azri, Warith & Crimson Coalition of course! Tried to look out fo my brah. Fat hope! No chance! Then; Fatal wanted to watch the fireworks. So we stop by the bridge to witness it. It was beautiful. But last year's was better. I cherished this year's cz I witnessed it with two faithful and dearest friends. Love em poeba! LOLs. ;)
Hmm. Then aft watching the fireworks, headed towards Earshot Cafe; wanted to chill der but was 9+ ardy. So we headed to town; Fatal was feeling town last niite. Met Akeem!! HAHA!! UNPLANNED!! Destinied gituh.. haharss. Lurrve him dipps baby!
He got a shock of his life when I came from behind and whispered in his ear. LOLs. He was hanging with BS; Alyph saw me and was smiling. Hes so CUTE!!! Peter-Parker was der too. HE'S IN SEARCH FOR A NEW LADY TO BE HIS BABY. Interested? email me aiite. haha. So then, since I was down at town. And @ Cine..there was Famous Amos. I had been craving for those since last week. So I bought meself 100gm of No Nut Choc Chip and bought Peach & Apple Tea from Cheers. 2 for $1.90 pe! LOLs. Then went to chill infront of NYC building. Saw DaFam der too.
We chill till late. My phone was ringin with calls and msgs non stop. All infos and news bout my brah's whereabouts. ALL his friends tt I know have no clue where he was. I HAFTA ACT INTERESTED WIT HIS NEW COMPANY!! hahaars. lameness. tknk aku!
So, we took the 2nd Last train home. Syugah went towards JE to go back home located @ CCK. We arrived der at 11.57pm. The last train twds Marina was 11.47pm. She missed it by 10mins. So she had to take a cab bk home. Heheee. Kesiian babygrl ku! Meh sini mehh.. alalalala-long! =P
I reached home aft twelve. Didn't remember wad time cz I didnt luk at the clock. Told me mum I was sorry cause I couldn't find my brah. My dad's fren was at my house. They are always guest at my house. Doesnt matter whose. Mine, Mum's, Dad's, Brah's.. huever. EVERYDAY theres always an insider in my crib. realli not faking. hahass. So, then.. took a shower. Sat on the comp. Chat with afew peeps while on the fon wit babyboy. And guess what, Adam & Suresh just confirmed the song choice to performed fo Prom Nite this year. So What by Field Mob feat Ciara. Haiiz. Kay lahh; I'm feeling lethargic aft the long day. Cnt take it nemore, nid my sleep. Update next week yarhh. Peeps, don't forget to cum dwn to Woodlands CC next Sat at 2pm fo Da Shocase II. There's gon be performances by Richard J, Bey, DSC, etc.. Kiip the blog alive. Tagg me. Link me. Love me. Reconize Me. mcm phm je..
xx Serenade. <33

i'll miss you

2006-07-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hey. Its sad. Its a realli bad thing to happen in any friendship.
Well, she wanna change. I'm fine with that. I guess. I will be. I accepted her before the way she is.. I'll accept the new her also. I'll just miss her...

Ain't No Meaning, seriously.

2006-07-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hey. Is there one person on Earth, other than yours truly, gets hurt or gets left out everytime she tries to fit in. IN her OWN FAMILY?
Is there no one perfect timing that my family can get together and have a great time at least once a month? Without ANYONE bothering. Just me, dad, mum, brothers. 6 members of Zakariah's family. Who always laughs away without me. The last time I remembered being together with my family and went out together was years ago. Almost five years ago... This is one moment in life. I want history to repeat itself.
I can't help it. The words my mum sed on the day aft my birthday this year seems to echo in my ear everytime I haf this feeling as if i'm left out and am d only daughter. It hurts to know that you are suppose to have an elder sister but something happened tt killed the fact. Why must she be the one? Why wasn't it me? Why must I live and why must she die? Its NOT FAIR! If only she lived... I can't blame my mum. Everyone makes mistakes. But she could repeat that same mistake WITH ME! Why didn't she? Oh, stop telling me to appreciate life. There's nothing to appreciate when you have friends who care and love you but ur family simply puts u aside. I keep thinking im adopted. But no, DNA test shows I'm not. I am by blood my parent's child. Mistaken child..
In the song Ain't No Meaning by Albert ft Sheerz, Albert's verse realli means alot. It says alot about how I feel in my family. I can't accept the fact. Don't try and make me. Things won't be better for this matter and I know it. Don't even bother to TRY convincing me. It won't work. I'll cry, say I feel better but I still feel the same. Let me save my tears.
Everything seems to fall into place when i'm outside. When I get home, my life just seem like one empty box. Chores all to me. When the clock hits 9.30pm, tts when I'm just in my room. On the phone with Syugah/Fatal/Akeem and imagining myself outside with them talking directly to me and soon falling asleep in their arms when I sleep on my bed with tears on my pillow and pain in my heart. Theres nothing much I can wish for. Wishes don't come true. There's nothing I can hope for. Hopes gets u no where. Theres nuin left fo me to believe in dreams. Dreams are meant for sleeping. I live my life in reality which is simply crazier than yours. Stop thinking you're the one waking up with tearstained cheek.
You don't know and never will know the feeling of a single daughter who is always mistreated by her family and whose elder sister never got a chance to live..never got a chance to see the world thru her own eyes.. I am me. I am my sister. She lives and see the world thru my eyes. She's d only one who understands. Even though I never know what she looks like. Deep inside. I know, she's a beauty of God's greatest creations. Too beautiful for the world to know she exsist. WHY?

xx Serenade

<3 him <3 me <3 u

2006-07-23T08:30:00.001-07:00

Hey.!! Well well, wanted to update yest after i got back. But was exhausted, so i went to bed. Ok, so.. basically yest, i had my Teenage Icon Semi-Finals yest. It was great fun! Enjoyed myself ALOT! Tho I'm not going to the Finals, so what? I'm happy I made it till the Semis and I'm proud tt i tried my best to perform an upbeat song even tho im sick! Syugah got thru. Happy fo her too. Well, CONGRATS to all the Finalist. Put up a good show at Jurong Point this 20th August ok?? I'm so gon be der screaming fer ya! =) Expect me there aiite. And the crowd was great too. Very happening yest. Thnks Akmal fo cuming. He was d only Primary Sch fren hu came dwn. My sec sch mates cudn't make it. They had CIP till 6pm. Haharrs.
Ok, Fatal, Rezzo, Doc & Akeem was der too. Rezzo made a complete FOOL of himself from wad i heard from Fatal. haha.!! "boy.. u hafta push" LOLs! Had great fun larh yest. Firstly, i was worried tt Syugah wud get disqualified bcz she's late fo hair and make-up thingy. but she made it in time. Secondly, Syugah arrived in a depressed state. Asrizal the bustard sed sum shit to her. How cud hE!? That bLo0dy *&$#@^ . If i ever see him by the streets, his face will taste Serenade's plam! No one hurts my cyg the way he did. What a pathetic underage no class act! PLus, it was thru d fon! Be a man c'mon! Grandmother tooter. So, I made Syugah believed that she can get over this moron and make another half of her day a better one. And she stand corrected. Lastly, the semi-finalist were so friendly tt i mingled like as if i've known em fo years!

After the whole event, the semi finalist got a goodie bag containing eye liner, converse sling bag and an imation waterbottle. It was indeed a tiring but happening day yesterday.
And this week is not gon be a simple one. I'm super BUSY! haha. Monday, i hafta report to the teachers after sch and explain my reason for getting suspended on Friday. Tuesday, getting home early to follow Mummy to Johor to collect a book and smuggle sum DVDs. Wednesday, going for recording with Syugah & Albert at Pasir Ris. Thursday, going to make IC at Lavender. Friday, may be mtng Syugah. Saturday, mtng Akeem and attending Speakeasy. Sunday, is d only day I'M FREE!! HAHA! well, i better get sum rest now. I'm sick ardy. & I cnt afford to cancel any appointment this week. All very important! hehee. You guys tekaiire aiite. ;) i miss ram0na lotss!

And.. here cums a fact. I'm attached with Akeem! Nyahakss. ;) yes yes.

xx Serenade SHEERZ

Teenage Icon Semi-Finals 1

2006-07-12T22:51:00.000-07:00

Hey all! Here on the update. Please make an effort to come down to support 2/3 of SHEERZ SISERS; Serenade Sheerz, ME! & Syugah Sheerz at the Teenage Icons Semi-Finals down at Bukit Panjang Plaza, Garden Plaza at 5pm! Bring down your friends too! Come and support please!!
Love,
Serenade xx

See you there luv. ;)

Yeah. Its MY BURFDAE .!!

2006-07-08T20:19:00.000-07:00

My first post on my first day bein fiftEEn
Gotta learn to be nice and stop bein mean
Things change from the way it usta be
Gotta know the girl thats inside of me
Don't you think i'm gona make a sudden change
I'm still gon be me, still gon be the same
Thnks to those who stood by me, you were always there fo me
Now i'm gon love ya'll straight till eternity
Believe me, trust me, be by my side
Cause if things take a fall, im gon make it alright
Please stop tellin me who I shud be
Its my life, my reality, my fantasy
Understand me and you'll know my destiny
I know I can't change the past,
But wadever happens I'm here to last
History is there, because of me and
My future will be how i want it to be

xx SERENADE, 15
o9o7o6 =)

Baby I Swear ..

2006-07-07T19:58:00.000-07:00

Baby I swear my love is true
Baby I swear I’m so in love with you
I’ll make you realize
I’m the one you need, I’ll be here by your side
Erday Ernight dreaming of you
When times get rough I will be down for you
Baby you blow my mind
Your vibe & sexy style, b you’re one of a kind

Words are spreading & here I’m dreaming
Bout the way I want us to be
Love me, hold me, kiss me baby
That’s the way its meant to be
3 months passed and I’m still feeling
The feeling I had before
Feel me baby, as I sing to the melody
I hate you reluctantly

Baby I swear my love is true
Baby I swear I’m so in love with you
I’ll make you realize
I’m the one you need, I’ll be here by your side
Erday Ernight dreaming of you
When times get rough I will be down for you
Baby you blow my mind
Your vibe & sexy style, b you’re one of a kind

Tell me a story, I’ll sing you a song
Telling you my love is strong
I’ll be there for you, like an angel by you
When something goes wrong
Cause in times of need
You’re always there for me
And I love you oh so dearly
Straight from my heart, right from the start
And till now I never wanna part

Baby I swear my love is true
Baby I swear I’m so in love with you
I’ll make you realize
I’m the one you need, I’ll be here by your side
Erday Ernight dreaming of you
When times get rough I will be down for you
Baby you blow my mind
Your vibe & sexy style, b you’re one of a kind

Only in my dreams
that you are in my arms.
Only when I sleep
I feel that you are mine.
Only in a wish
that i can hold your hand,
Hoping one day, you’ll truly understand

. " dedicated to HIRM and my bezfren hu has a huge crush on sumone .

" . one less perfect then the next *

2006-07-07T13:35:00.000-07:00

Haluhh. Here's an update.
Well, unfortunately..things haven't been looking up for my last week being f0urteen.
The whole week was a fiasco. Started out on Sunday. Unfortunately.
Sumone did smth he/she wasn't suppose to do. Things back fired and then he/she regretted his/her actions because now, erthing seems to fall apart for him/her.
As I try my very best to convince him/her tt things are gon be aiite. He/She simply doesn't listen. So, tts one thing tt has been happening. And still is happenning. Tomorrow, i'll be with my cool dudes and lovely dudettes; celebrating my bdae eve! Haha.
The other thing tts been happenning and I don't like it.. Is.. of course none other than the hot hot guy i always talk about when family issues are brought up. MY INFAMOUS 17-YEAR-OLD BROTHER, KHALIL. Yepps. He jus don't understand what his family is going thru just for him and I don't see the reason why. I do wanna have fun too. I do wanna chill around. I do wanna be with my friends all nite long if i could. I do wanna be free. But in life, we gotta simply be who we are. We have to do something tt we believe we can strive not do something bcz we like doing it. My brother, a devil trapped in a young man's body. An innocent teenager, trapped in a devil soul's. Urgh! If only I could carry out excorsim on him. HAHA! CRAP!
Well, nuff said bout tt guy. Now, I wan things in life to work out. It takes time. But..I'm gon spend my time like as if its the last second i'll ever breathe. U never know when you're gon die. I'm turning 15 on Sunday. I'll be leaving my 2nd Stage of life. 14years has passed. Experience are experience. Memories will be cherished. Bygons are bygons. I'm learning to walk on my own. Learning to face reality and leave behind my fantasy. Trying to accept that I AM MY OWN DESTINY...

complications after complications

2006-07-01T11:39:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Hrrm, now I've got weekend broadband. So, it's easier to update and all.
Lets just start with 'what happened today'...
Woke up early, went fo Ngaji at CCK. Then, returned home with my lil brothers. Around 2.30pm, made my way to Somerset to meet Akeem. We watched Superman Returns! LOLs. But nice lahh the show.. Not bad. Very pain my ear, the sound effect! LOLs.
Then, after the show, met up with Fatal & Firwan. Tepranjat beruk ku Firwan ader!! Goodness! I almost loss concious wen I saw his face wen I exitted the ladies. But, I told myself to act normal. Well, i am normal.
Then, the funny thing is..We went to Esplanade. After the great time I had earlier on in the day. Things have to get rooky. Life is a bitch. Life wudn't be a bitch, if Life tried. haha! Hrrmm, ok. We went to esplanade..Then proceeded to the roof top. Firwan met his friend. *im green*
and from the top, I saw my elder brother! What the hell was he doin der?! He sed he'll be at Clementi the whole day! But he was at Esp, with his friends. So, i did something I shudn't do. I called him. I told him I saw him and he wanted to hang ard with me. Of cz, i tried to ask him to head home. BUt he sed he has sum issues to settle. His friend was beaten up and he wants to 'help'. I cudnt help my tears, I went bonkers. I was filled with grieve, anger, the air of melancholy didn't give me a break. I was mixed up. Fatal, Firwan & Akeem was there. I gave that -so-what-attitude- which I know I shudnt have. *stoopid me*
I was hoping Syugah to arrive that instant but hope was lost. It took another 30mins to dread b4 she arrived with Doc. Doc and the guys talked while I poured out to Syugah. I cried.
How can my brother be blinded by the lights his family has shined on him eversince he was a baby? Why can't he turn over a new leaf and realise what is wrong and what is right?
Thanks to him, I'm afraid to trust a guy..

Yesterday, wasnt THE DAY

2006-06-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

Hey.
Yesterday, I went out with Syugah & Fatal. Before I went our to meet em, my mum was cross.Well, she is sick and yet her daughter instead of staying home to look after her, goes out with her frens. That point, I knew tt my day is not going to turn out the way I want it to. I know things are going to go wrong.
Firstly, I met Syugah and we went to send her minus 1 beat to KHL Building at Pasir Rits Loyang Dr. Then we went to Bedok to meet Fatal and his 2 cousins. Akilah and dunnoh who. We then proceeded to town, to makan. We stopped at Somerset. But then Syugah was pissed because me and Fatal kept bragging about our late night conversation, she wasn't in the convo so she doesn't know a thing we were talking about and she got pissed and decided to go home. She brisked walk all the way to Orchad MRT station and then decided to change her mind and apologised. But when we reached Far East, she burst out crying bcoz of *smth* and then we had to walk back to Cineleisure coz its embarrasing for Syugah to eat at Far East after the bunch of ppl seeing her tears. So then we walked back. But then Fatal cousin was no where in sight. SO WHAT. LOLs.
Then after eating at KFC, we went to walk2 at Heeren, and I started to be emotional and being so egoistic.
That Asyraf lahH!! uRgh! keep thinking bout tt guy. haiiz.
Hhm. i gtg now. tekaiire.

Complicate THIS life of mine AGAIN

2006-06-07T20:56:00.000-07:00

Hey. Now, this is just gon come out like the other time.
Haiiz. Truth hurts but thanks Fatal fo telling me. Thanks Syugah fo bein der. with ur words of encouragement. LOLs. Thought I will never get over THAT guy. Only my ex can replace him. My dear Asyraf.
Ok, while I was talking to Fatal on my cellphone last 3 days ago(05-06) around 1.10am. My home phone rang. I thought, who could possibly be calling at such an hour? If anyone wants to look for me or my brother, they would've called our cell. I picked up, HE was looking for me. I didn't recognize his voice as it was deeper than the last time we talked before, 8 months ago. When he, so called, revealed himself. I almost drop dead. That morning Fatal told me THAT guy had someone in heart. I was worried I won't be able to get over him; And I told Syugah that only Asyraf can do the magic. And BOOM! he called me back. i tried countless times calling him but I couldn't get thru as he changed his number. I was so happy that I had to put down the phone with Fatal so that me & Asyraf could do some catching up together. After all, its been 8 months.
We chat for 2 hours and I finally felt sleepy and decided to call it a night. Hoping that the next night(06-06), we'll have the nocturnal conversation again. BUT, unfortunately, he was sleepy. So, we didn't really talked.
Followed by the next day(07-06), we didn't msg each other AT ALL. We didn't talk on the phone. Once again he msgd me saying he got soccer training tmr in he morning and he needed to sleep. Was he avoiding me? I sneaked to my brother's room and text Asyraf a msg using my brother's phone as my prepaid LOW! Urggh.
Till now, at this moment. He hasn't called nor msg.
I don't know why but somehow, I just can't erase him from my memory. The times we spent and shared together is much stronger than I thought.
Its been so long since I stared into his eyes and founf myself needing a compass and a map. I was lost everytime I look into his gaze. Words couldn't combine to express how much I still love him. Other guys are nice, understanding and almost everything alike Asyraf but I just don't feel the spark. If you were to ask do I still love him. I'll say, "Still and forever" ...

\\Corrupted//

2006-04-17T01:05:00.001-07:00

Ola.!
Haiiz. Wad a day. The weather is not making things perfect. Yarhs. I noe nothing's ever perfect. ...
Well, I guess today is not my day. Its good that at least the streets of Singapore is being washed and the plants are getting water. 8) LOLs.
haiiyoo. Today, early2 morning..Aaron called. asking if i wanna mit him or not. i took d later bus cause i was eating a heavy breakfast. so, didn't mit him larh. no big deal tho. bla.bla.bla. he said to give him a miss call wen i reach Holland Busstop, so i did lah. Its nt a signal asking him to wait fo me. DUH! hahahhs. so mean la Nad!!
Then, was lazy to walk so waited fo 145. reached school saw Nurul, Aisyah & sister. Then wen i settled down fo morning assb, found out Patrick was absent!! =O
So after flag-raising ceremony, i text him and he claimed he wasn't feeling well. Ouhkayy. heheees. Tu lahh! Hu ask u to go play in the rain?! Sumoh with tt fren of urs. But i wonder.. how cum he a-ok but u fall sick? low immune huh? LOLs. ok, i'll stop it.

Then during Maths Lesson, Aaron msged me. LMFAO! Cn't believe the msg he sent me mann. Here's what happened. Sorry if you can't understand.

AARON: U.Best p blg sume org yg i knl u aru 2 ari den sound u stead...Best tk?Smlm i kol u srh kol alk tpi tk kol...Org tggu u kol tpi tk kol...Tpi u blg kol Nashriq...Asl...I ni jahat sgt ke yg u nanak kol..Tela...Nnti mlm pon, bknye die kol org..Dier kol Nashriq...Org syg die tpi die tk appreciate...

OK. GET ONE THING STRAIGHT. I'M SINGLE.
Guess what was my reply..
((*FYI: Nashriq[Nas] is Aaron's close friend in class))

NADIAH: If ttz wd u tink den tts tt urh. Bt fo sho, i didntgt any kols from u smlm. My abg was holdng my fon n he didnt tell me nthng. N i cume blg my abg yg u sound org. My bro muz haf told d rez. U pikir i knl dgn kwn2 die sume? N yh, i did kol Nas, so? Get tis straight, we haf nth to do together. We're jz frenz.

LOLs. well, what cn i possibly say? fiine. i tolerated wen he asked me D ANS, wen he asked fo kisses, wen he start holding my hands, wen he starts placing his hands on my hips, etc. but this has to cum to an end. if he is gonna be interpreting way beyond wads happenin den go and die lah! saper mau p pujok sehh! no tiime! m nt d kinda grl hu goes ard making up to you wen i noe i'm not at wrong. unless you're sumone special. duhh.
siince u noe tt i haf extremely no affection, why go on hurting urself and luk fwd to me appeasing U? PUHLEASE!
GET A FREAKING NEW LIFE!

haiiz. den Nas oso loiike jz tahan with him lahh. My bro? Humph. Useless freakk. he like no feelings one urh. every type of person der is in life, he will be frens with. doesnt matter d age, d attitude, d gender nor d appearance. he is a man of wisdom. CHEY! Cm betol jerrk. =P

kayy lh. since the weather is raining, i might as well tuggg iin. hehee. nice weather to sliip my arse off. LOLs.

LURRVE,
SERENADE
xoxo

You Don't See Me

2006-04-15T00:51:00.000-07:00

This is the place where I sit,
This is the part where I love you too much.
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
and tumblin' and breakin'

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights

I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only-
Crystal and see-through and not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

..
ina. i really am sorry if fo yoo, i wasnt der.
tot u'd bother to beep me. but no msg nor miss calls weof ur digits were on my cell.
im sorry.

lurvee,
-serenade

\\Makes No Sense//

2006-04-15T00:16:00.000-07:00

Ola.!
Seriously, i admit. I'm a reali sucked in-confused-blurr-silly-4teen year old-grl.
noe wHy? simple explanation. im simply sucked in. im confused. im verry blurr and result me in being silly.
haiyooh.
as you noe. this aaron guy. yahh. well. he is kinda liike pissing me off lah! last thursday, mebe sum of you Queenswayans saw me walking to C'walth busstop with him. THAT MEANS NOTHING! get it straight!! IT MEANS NOTHING OUHKAYY!
N-O-T-H-I-N-G!
as i was saying, he is pissing me off. furstly, i just got to noe him like wad, a week ago. and on Monday afternoon, he asked "D QNS" of coz its a NO. DUH!! then. on Wednesday, he asked fo a kiss. (wadda fARKK!) i ignored. then on the Thursday. he asked agen. whhadda hell is wrong with him?! he wans to physco me? puhhlease.!!
not tt kinda grl u can easily place a bet on. no boy. i dun catch ur bait at all. so stop trying! u blew ur chance wen u started holding my hand after i tried shaking it off so many times. RESPECT was all i asked fo.

haiiz.

haha. farnii riite, guys now-days ahh! =D *no offence*
den today, before he went to Boys Hostel, my brother asked him to cum over and go together with him and another friend of his, Mawi. myy goodneess!! life ohh liife. so cruel. yeahhs.
wahh sia. i lazy mann today. lepak at home onlii. tk kluar langsong!!
haha. finally, i got the adidas bag!! RED COLOUR!! whoohoo! smucks smucks smucks!! larrp it to diips mann!
biin admiring it everytime i walk past Royal Sporting House. wanted d adidas, reebok and puma bag. but lurrve adidas more. so wen i got d $38, adidas was d furst bag i bot! nyehe.
ina, dun jeles arhh..u got tt pink bag mahh.=P

but still counting on tt adidas sport watch!! lukin at atikah's wrist makes me envy her so the much mann! damm. it makes no sense at all. but still, i lurve her l0ts. hehess.

aiiyo. im so bored.!! like want to go out but no where to go, no one to go with. sumore. im penniless! haha. yesterday, bot the bag. today tkde money! LOLs.

kayy lah. wanna rest the eyes AGAIN. haha.

LURRVES
SERENADE
xoxo

\\Everyone Needs to Change//

2006-04-13T00:15:00.000-07:00

Ola!
Ouhhkay. Today, came back home and met up with Lan. as usual. this muthafagker is pissing me off sia! errgh!! but as daddy sed, leave him alone and walk ur way thru, one day he'll realise that hes nt much different then you.
if dad says so, den tts wad i'll do. =)

hhm. actually..I've been giving this a thought fo sucha long tiime. if you disagree with me; i'm sorry but this is how its gon be.
FROM NOW ON, i wanna be a better person.
FROM NOW ON, i will kiip my distance.
FROM NOW ON, i'll be true to my words.
FROM NOW ON, i'll be careful with promises.
FROM NOW ON, i'll be the one my parents once knew
FROM NOW ON, i'll do my house chores and school work too
FROM NOW ON, i'll follow the time-table
FROM NOW ON, i haf to get back home by 10pm
FROM NOW ON, i'll have to learn to understand
FROM NOW ON, i'll try to never lie
FROM NOW ON, i'll accept facts tt i am hu i am
FROM NOW ON, i dun wanna haf enemies
FROM NOW ON & TILL FOREVER
i'm gonna love my parents, the way they've always loved me.

derr. ouhhkayy. so tmr is Good Friday. and hell yeah! im meeting Rezzo! =) nyahah. wan see him bald! >=)
i noe m bad. i noe. i noe. hahah.
ouhkayy. things getting serious now.

Dearest VO, apology accepted. I understand if you got to carried away with the emotions. i do too wen i get the blues and the frust. =) glad to noe that you've finally understand tt it wasnt going out to Swift. hope boff of eeu will make it thru w0keey.
take care aiites. peace!

And err, kak Lisa if u reading this..please try to get my hp num ouhhkay. BEFORE SATURDAY! got imp thing to tell you!

LURRVE.
SERENADE
xoxo

\\URGHH!!//

2006-04-12T05:40:00.000-07:00

Erghh! I can't take it mann! tt dribbler is so kicking my ass! so what if he and the ball is a bestfren?! hey. i've got a thing-bezfren too! camera!! hah.
he lurrves to dribble riite???? den go try get thousands of balls and dribble at the same tiime lahh! suker2 je nk sakat org. i've got feelings owaiite!!! i can get thousands of cams and with just a pose i can get shots at diff angles! u?! haha! wadever.

((HEY. EFA AND SWIFT IF YOU THINK THE RHYME BELOW GOES OUT TO SWIFT. YOU GOT IT WRONG. WHAT YOU THINK I'VE GOT NOTHING BETTA TO DO RATHER THAN DISS SWIFT?! WHATEVER FOR? THE DRIBBLER IS A NEIGHBOURHOOD GUY WHO I ALWAYS MEET AFTER SCHOOL. AND HE KIIPS DISTURBING ME AND ALL! I WANTED TO PERFORM WITH HIS DANCE CREW[CONSISTING OF THE PPL I NOE] AND HE WENT SAYING I HAVE TO AUDITION. AND WHY DO YOU EVEN THINK ITS A DISS TO SWIFT!? YOU WANNA SAY IM WHACK, SO BE IT. I CAN LEARN FROM THERE. THANKS. BUT IF YOU SAY IM WHACK, THEN WHY DO YOU TAKE OFFEND WITH THAT RHYME THAT ISN'T AT ALL GOING OUT TO YOU??? AND THANKS FO CALLING ME A BITCH. THANK YOU. ))

as i was saying. foget bout the abv if you don't understand. as i was saying.. tt dribbler( Lan ) betta stop the damn attitude before i really get a needle up his ass man!! kau pikir matae kau lawa, kau boleh kutok yg laen? pathetic.

\\Responded//

2006-04-11T04:45:00.000-07:00

Ola!
Once again. Its me. da lamer tk ku buat begini. haha. its been long since i update my blog on a daily basis. weehee.
ouhkayy. Rezzo is in and he is BALD! nyahaha!! LMAO! ahahks.
=D
Ouhkayy. Ouhkayy. Basically, today was like any other Tuesday. Went to school, went to track and came back home.
On my way home, in the train..I met Freeze! hahss. malunye! met him in track and field attire and face! wad the birdnest mann! told him bout what happened to the once, "FVO" and he just gave a sarcastic "ha-ha". wiiteva lahh.
came back home, Aaron asked me fo "D ANS". Of coz lah i can't accept him. its nt tt i dun harf feelings fo him at all but i feel its just a rush to get into a relationship with him. baby, we gotta chill! haha.
so then, he was dissapointed and started calling himself an asshole and a bastard. wiiteva lahh. tried to appease him but nth came out of it. so, i guess its betta if i leave him to cool himself and reflect positively then i'll get back to him. =)

d otha thing i wanna bring up is tt. me, adam and suresh may be performin fo teacher's day this year! but we dun0h wad song to bring. well, tyrus suggested "Where'd You Go? - Fort Minor" but I haven't disscussed it with either of them. hahhs.
well. why the sudden choice? its bcoz, adam and suresh MAYBE wanna join Platform7 and dey wan d exposure behhbEy.
hehee. verriii d advance gud luck to the bof of em!! eheh.

kayy lah. im damn tiired todayy. nyehehe. chalo-beta!

LURRVE,
SERENADE xoxo

\\Take Care//

2006-04-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

Ola.!
Hey. ouhkayy. this post is going out to REZZO! Who's going to serve his country tomorrow, 11th April 2006, 0530h. =( Gon miss hiim liike fagg. dammit.

Dear Rezzo, i know things haven't been going the way you wanted it last weekend. But whatever it is, remember that me and Kak Izza will always be here fo you kayy.? I'll be der fo you d way you've been der fo me. The song on my blog is going owt to you. Sorry if i've been irritating you. but if i dun, you just won like it. riite? hehee. well, i hope your thigh is feeling lots betta! tuhh lahh! spent ur $$*ka-ching!*$$ loiike water summore. it wun be der wen u reli niid it and the consequences, you gotta take it. now, see what telah happened. two words fo you; PADAN MUKE! =P tu lah. degil. nex tiime listen to me.
now that the truth is out and you've put urself out of 'F'-VO. but what did you went thru on Saturday? whatever fo? told you to put it down. its not worth it. DEGIL! so very stubborn. if kak izza is reading this, i bet she's LHFAO! haha.
Do me a favour, you know i'm gon miss you so so so much wen you're in camp. but plss. wen u get ur furst pay. I WANT MY FAMOUS AMOS! hahaha! i noe. im bad. >=) but. its just the way i live beybeh! yeah. =))
and please send me ur verse fo our song wokeeyy.? im gon work on the bridge. and mebe mah verse. ;)
hhm. wad else shud i say?..
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yah! pls do take care of urself wen u're in there. remember tt u've got ur loved ones outside. and dun be stubborn in there lah! PLEASE!!! FO GOD'S SAKE! i'm sorry i can't meet you today. PENAT LOIIKE HELL! even Aaron asked me to meet him, i said no. padehal, suroh jumper pat Queenstwn Library tau. so the seblah skola. haha. i noe. i noe. PEMALAS ME. nyahaha.

I noe, you're going, "WHO THE HELL IS AARON?!"
well, aaron is the guy hu was hanging on the line yesterdae as we were talking bout ur FVO issue. he's got this affection fo me. HOW I KNOW HIM? funneh storry.
Aaron, 16, Queenstown Sec, serving Weekend Detention at Sg Boys Hostel loiike my elder brother.
Ring a bell?
No?
MY BROTHER DUHH! kayy. aaron called ma house one day, looking fo my brother hu was asleep. then aaron passed his number to me, asking me to pass it to my elder brother. i did the nex morning but i didnt delete the number from my phone.
then, remember the tiime at skygarden? yahh. i didnt lock my keypad and i TER-send aaron a msg. i dunoh wad msg la da delete.. den he text me. asking me "saper ni?" den i sed im khalil's sister and i told him that he gave me his own number to pass to my brother but then i didnt delete yet. haha. so then, in the morning. i bumpped into him at Commonwealth MRT (loiike always) and we chat awhile.
in sch, we were msg-ing one another. then he asked me "THE QNS" . =O
i noe. haha. but dun worrie. i've got brains lahh. i just got to know him riite. tkkn nk troz accept. its weird. NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE. aniwae, ders another guy at heart. ;)

Rezzo.. i'm so gonna miss you after tomorrow. no niid miss you now. no use. haha! kidding. =D
remember to take care of urself dear. lurrve u bro.

LURRVE,
SERENADE
XOXO

Why?

2006-04-07T17:21:00.000-07:00

I don't care if you wanted an audition, but please never doubt any of God's creation. So what if you can dribble? I can get ur ass shove with needle. You think you're fucking great, well you do have a mate. See how long it's gon last, see if its gon be fate. But as long as your ego stands in line, things between you and sum others just won't be fine. I was being realistic, you're being materialistic. Might as well, i get you one red lipstick. Your acting like a chic, worst then a kid. Give me another comment, i'll give you a kick! You don't go around bragging bout your 'ustabee' status, life goes on, so keep track of what's LATEST! Yeah, i don't know you deep, but remember i'm saying this just because of what you said about this chic!

-

I know you're my daddy but you're driving me crazy
I'm a big girl now, i can walk on my own
Every sigle day, i get ma cute ass back home
and When i am at home, i feel so alone. I have no sister, wish i had a clone
Dad, do you hafta nag? Everytime i get back?
You're tryna be protective but stop the checks
Its your love that i lack, i'm tryna be somebody
So please stop your tags!!

-

I dream of your smile
your style, your laugh
I dream we are together as the days slowly pass
I dream I'm your everything
your girl, your world
then I wake up
broken in two
that is a shattered dream
that will never come true.

-

i'm just feeling dark this morning. Guess I woke up on the wrong side of bed... haiiz.

SHOOT ME DEAD,
SereNade.
xoxo

-`dFAMOUS-FIVE

2006-04-06T01:45:00.000-07:00

Ola!
I'm glad that finally my huneys are back to me. well. not all five tho. whatever it is. if you read this, please understand that im not tryna tell all how i feel bout him. its just the truth grl.
GRL=NURULJANNAH =(
sad to say. she's the only one whom i cant relate maself to now. its like as if i cant trust her cause her dearest, 'Juma'at' is kinda like menghalang me!
i dunoh why but, it juz feels that way. mebe its her guy. yeah. i suppose. whatever lahh! its not like as if i can't survive. im still breathing aaiite!
Well lulu..if u wanna know what actually happen. Let me tell you a story.
You know what happened after xcountry riite? yeah. i break down big tiime. hees. well then after march holidays, he never did talked to me ever since. whatever la. but hey. he can haf all the grudge he wants towards me. its not like as if i care. DUH!! but will he pleae keep his opinions and his blooooooooooooooooddiiiiY mouth of his shut! he need not go around the small class and throwing negative remarks on me! i've still got ma pride grl! i've got a rep grl!
and hey, its NOT WRONG to actually haf a GUY BESTFRIEND IN CLASS! Yep. i know some of you grls dun. and sum guys dun haf grls as a bestfriend but that doesn't mean its a crime to haf one! yeah, i share ma stuffs with him and not with others. yes, i give him more attention then i give to others. BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M INTO HIM!!!!!!! [him - patrick]
GET THAT INTO JUMAAT'S HEAD/BRAIN/COMMON SENSE [ does he even haf one? ]
He need not express his thoughts in English Lesson, GroupWork! Its embarrasing to actually having a MALE TEACHER reading negative thoughts on A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL IN A CLASS FULL OF BOYS! Thanks to Ghazali, Patrick & Isman, I held ma tears back. I hafta be strong. I know i hafta to. I'm not gonna cry just because of that. Ma tears are worth better then that humiliation.
And because of this kinda situation happening in ma class, i can't express it out to Jannah. Somehow, i haf the feeling she'll tell Jumaat. (kater lubing here and there.no secrets between us -.-') WHATEVER!!
But. To KISHA, INA & SYAH. THANKS A ZILLION! Lurrve u grls to diips and pieces.
JANNAH, its not that i dun lurrve you and i dun wanna thank you. i dun wana cum between u and him. whatever happens. we know inside we're who we are. and he is not gonna change wat i feel inside. never haf and never will. thanks fo everythin. but fo now, jz giv me the space i nid. i hafta get use to the humiliation im gonna face for the entire years that i'm gonna spent in the same class as him. =/

FAMOUS FIVE. I NOE WE'RE BACK. I NOE YOU GRLS FEEL ME. THANK YOU
IF WATER WERE HUGS, I'LL GIVE YOU THE SEA
IF LEAVES WERE KISSES, I'LL GIVE YOU A TREE
IF LOVE IS FOREVER, I'LL GIVE YOU ETERNITY
IF YOU ARE LONELY, YOU'VE STILL GOT ME. =)
remember this grls. its meant fo you. SMUCKS!

-'dUPDATE

2006-03-31T19:53:00.000-08:00

Ola!
Hey. its been wad..hw many months since i last updated? yahh.
well. kiip you updated with sum stuffs that's has happened/been happening/is happening/going to happen. heehs. =)

HAS HAPPENED
Ok. before the 25th Feb. Me and a guy named Jidsaw formed up a crew, "Just Us Two[J.U.T]"
We joined the Woodlands Hip Hop GiG & Showcase. That was muh furst rap performance out in public. Before getting ma ass on stage, i was freaked to death but wen it was all over, i wanted it to rewind! =P its in my DNA! hahahss.
Well, it was a competition. Duh, we didn't won! But those who did realli deserves it. Hey, lose graciously lahh! *cheeks*.
Okay. That was then. Now for what happened this week. J.U.T is history. Seriously, i can't handle it with Jid. He's been bubbling on his word and chocking my neck! Its not that i'm trying to say he's damn wack or something. its like as if i'm so dope if i were to say that. but hey, he's taking sucha long time to write his rhymes. its been like a month ago since he sed he wanted to do a 2nd song[Let's Party was the 1st song and we performed it Woodlands].
There was this song, Life Goes On that he wanted to work on. It took him like a looong time to actually just write a rap verse according to the song! WHAT THE HELL!!
The whole song was ready EXCEPT his verse(s). I can't stand him! But hey, i've got patience ok! [haha! but havent mastered it YET] -which mean i will..soon. XD
But i had enuff wen i heard tt he went around Art House exclaiming he is wack! WHAT THE HELL!! He's pulling down my water face! I got a rep to take care of!
Plus to add on, i hang around with Rezzo & Friends. and those FRIENDS were Jid's close friends once. but he had some beefin with em and he is tellin me, NOT TO BE FRIENDS WITH EM bcoz of some reasons i wun post! What the hell!!! Urgh. So then. I told him straight. I SEE NO FUTURE IN J.U.T

BEEN HAPPENING
Bcoz of what happened. I told Rezzo bout what Jid sed bout Rez. And he wasn't realli tt offended. but i heard tt Jid used a name to blablabla. [to prevent guilt, i wun explain the blablabla]
so now, ppl are realli cross at him and his gonna be under alot of beef. even tho i've washed my hands off him. I RELI FEEL GUILTY ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENING!!

IS HAPPENING
As i mentioned. I'm feelin so fcukin guilty. i mean. wen we were in a crew, wenever he had issues, i'll be there. but now, i realli wish someone will be there fo him. everyone niids a listening ear. and i noe u're going like, "den why did u wash ur hands off him?" its bcoz, i'm nt the kinda person hu can tolerate tt kinda person. pikiran setengah peepoll are not my under my case.!
but yet. I FEEL SO GUILTY! someone slap me.

GOING TO HAPPEN
Ok. So its 1st April. Speakeasy at Art House today. and today's the day Jid is gonna have to come clean bout his issues. i dun wanna be there but somehow i wanna be there. i'm like the one hu putting him thru this. why cant i shut the mouth up? urh. but hey jid! you made me mad, and this is what happen if u make me mad. i make shit happen. go0dness. MAHGAWD!!
haiiz.
luk on the briite side. im gettin FREE tix and cookies today! =) nyahaha.
kay. gtg now. wan bathe den siap2. mtng Rezzo at CCK MRT CNTRL STATION IN LOIKE and hour!! haha! gotta rush.

Lurrve,
-[SereNade]-
xoxo

theTHRUTH

2005-11-25T22:06:00.000-08:00

Heyy! Loong tiime huh? Now finnaly get the chance to update! I will. First of, i'd like to apologise if i haven't linked some of you up before and it took a long time for me to do so but now, those who asked me to link em up.. I have! =) Secondly, to all who TAGGED! thanks! thanks! thanks! It makes my blog worth visiting even tho its not updated frequently! Nyahaha! >=) Thridly, to ABG AZHAR! Thanks for telling everybody the opposite meaning of BLOGGING! haha! but what you're trying to say is quite true! and dun forgot to link me up larghh!! And and and.. CALL ME!! You promised! Hw cum no news abuot anii dance performace yet.. Ergh!

Wookkie. Now, lets see. I hope you like the new skin yargh?

Hhhmm..Wanna know something? *ehem* called me!! well, wun tell u huu! Figure it out urself! =P . Well, we had a full house confrance from 11pm till 5am. SWIIIT!! It was like heaven darn! fCuk! haha! Hhhhmm.. You know, i'm still tryna firgure out dha code for doze scrolling photos ya noe! So if you can help mii out! PLEASE DO! Ok, wadz der to say... bla..bla..bla... tat was wad happened the past month(s) ! Hehe. Well, actually. Dance practice is starting agen tomorrow! So happiiie! And muh darling lil sister - Inah is cuming! Nyahaha!! Seriously, I can't wait for tomorrow. Feo has got a good news to tell ALL! -.-' asked her to spare me sum humanity and bless me with mercy by just telling me earlier, she REFUSED! uRgh! Sum people are so stuck to their words. But its good isnt it? Yeah! It is. WHATEVER!

Well. lets talk about the *ehem* abit larh. He is an ex of muaine. Its been a torture to see him leading his own life with *aahem* . but they finally broke off and well. kinda hapiie. kinda bummed. you know that mixed feeling you got wen you take your mum's shoes without her knowing! U'huh. Tatz dee feeling alright!

I actually confessed to him that I never did got over him even though I was the one who broke up with him. I knew the reason back then was really stewpiid but until now, i dun't know why I can't seem to get the truth out. But thanks to Baim, he helped me out aLoT!! Thnks!! I tot afta the confession, since he sed Friends Forever, I'd be kiiping cold towards him even tho I wanna be sincere. But, then he called and I found myself talking to him like nothing ever happened! It was wicked!! =) But, you know something. I don't really care if he wants me back or not. If he isn't meant to be with me. I'll accept that fact. Maybe I'm better off with someone else. Who knows? Well, one thing's for sure... Someday, somewhere, my prince will come! =)

Well, this little message is going out to INA&DIN .

Harap-harap korg due kekal sampai anak-cucu nye?? Haha!! Be happiii. Stay Safe. Be Clean!! =)

Lurpp euu Ina!! I'll olways b der fer you the way you want me to! Trust me! I'm glad you didn't waste this chance. =)

Ohkaeey. Guess I'll stop here now. Take Care. Lurrve You!

Hhhmm..yes. yes. TO THOSE WHO HAVE ADDED ME IN FRIENDSTER! WRITE ME A TESTIMONIAL!!! =) TankiieeU!

* -- ` Miss'd Me?

2005-10-20T15:55:00.000-07:00

Ola.

Missed me? Wee! I know you did. Hehe. Well, lets start off by...Thanks for visiting my blog..please don't forget to tag the tagboard aite? Thanks =) ! Ohkay. I know that wasn't a nice way to open a new greeting. Hehe. Thanks to those who tagged please do tag again. Bahhx!

Okie. The big, big news.... I'm Single! WeehEe. Single-mingle-tingle-jingle..! Haha. At first; I was really depressed. Even though, I was the one who asked for the break up. I can't possibly forget one of my ex. If you know me well, you'll know who He is. I failed to get rid of him from my mind, heart & soul but it seems like he is stuck to it! At least I tried ok!? Heard from one of Ramdan's friend that after I sent him the Confessions message. He went with his friends for a game of pool and he was spilling vulgarities towards me!! Ok! I don't blame him. He was a nice boyfriend and I let him go after a month.. I admit it was really bitchy to do so. I know. I realise. I apologisED! What more does he want?! If I don't love him ANYMORE, he can't possibly force me to grow that feeling AGAIN?! Ok, Ina was right. Don't depend hopes on him too much. That was what Ina told me when I said I liked Ramdan. She knew it was an ifatuation that wouldn't last long. She knew He was still on my mind. Yet, I went against her and then got myself into this mess. Whatever it is; life goes on. He wants to spill vulgaritites at me again and again I don't care. It's not like after he does that I'm going to change my mind EVER!!! No boy, it doesn't work that way! A girl's heart is fragile. I heard from my trusted friends about who and what you are without me in your sight. Don't ask me what they've said. You should know better. The mirror is always there.

For my Exams... I passed all subjects except Maths. No surprises. Failed by 3 marks! Dudly miserable! ErGh! Haha! But still there's other subjects to help me up and my CA marks will surely do much too. Ok, gotta go now. Take Care! Please Tag!

XoXo SeReNaDe

//Officially In School\\

2005-09-19T14:31:00.000-07:00

`Ola! Well, guess what? Last Saturday I went to Plaza Singapura with Dan. In the MRT on the way there; during Jurong East station. I saw Ashik. I was like "That was AshiK!" And of course, my guy was like..."Who?" And I explained to him who was Ashik. I really didn't have the thought that he would be going to Plaza Singapura. While me and my darling was there...We went in and round the whole shopping mall, after an hour or so; we decided to eat. We checked McDonald's and there was the surprise!! Ashik was seated with his crew, "Hellboyz" at a seat outside. I was so shocked! I pretended to be okay as I didn't want to wory my dear. I went over 'calmly' and shook hands with Ashik. He looked just as shocked. After shaking hands with him, I told Dan in the face, (me looking like a half dead shit stuffed puppy) "let's eat at KFC". He was like, "huh?". Well, of course..what could you expect? I obviously, pushed him all the way into the shopping mall. Not even looking back once. HEY! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?!!
After eating and walking around in the mall again, we decided to go to Heeren. So, we made our way out. That was when I saw Hellboyz performing. Whoohoo! It was like the 1st time after so many months that I saw Ashik's moves. He was certainly better then the last time I saw him practising with my cousin - Camou Artist(Abg Azhar). Haha!! Yep, as hard as it is to believe it. Even though I've got a great guy. I miss Ashik. Alot. I miss him. Him. The whole package of him. Even tho he didn't really treat me right, I still miss him.
Okay. That was Ashik. Now, can you believe that ASYRAF IS NOW CONTACTING ME AGAIN??!! After a month of ignorance. Now, he is calling me back. Messaging me again. His first msg after so many years came in on 14 Sep 2005; 11:33pm. I was almost sleeping. Well, before that he did msg me lar..we had an arguement. Tell me who wouldn't be mad if someone just comes back to you after so long, and weh nthat someone left. It was heartbreaking. Now he cums back like nothing ever happened. Ergh! K. I gtg now. Take Care!

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT ME

2005-09-18T23:46:00.000-07:00

[[SENSE OF COLOURS]]

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:
You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.
At Your Lowest:
You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.
In Love:
You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.
How You're Attractive:
You are very affectionate and inspire trust.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Respected?"

What's" Your Power Color?

[[IDEAL CAREER]]

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

[[HOW OBSERVANT AM I?]]

C-

You tend to notice the big things in life...But the details aren't exactly your forte

How Observant Are You?

[[MY KINDA RELATIONSHIP]]

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

[[MY KISSES]]

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romanceYou love to kiss under the stars or by the seaThe perfect kiss involves the perfect moodIt's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

\\_`LeavingItAllBehind! //

2005-08-29T16:09:00.000-07:00

` Well. Hey! I'm here on the update again. Nothing much has happened in my life. Really. Just the same lifestyle. Well, ok. Its different. Parents are getting a lil stricker with curfew. ((UrGh!!)) Haha! What you expect mann..? Me single-mingle to tingle! Waha!! =)) Well, currently a cupid has struck my heart. Ashik and me broke up. Well, its complicated alright. So lets just not talk about it cause it'll cost me abt 45 minutes typing the whole thing. Seriously!! Ok. Asyraf. Remember him? Well; i hate to say it but i'm moving on!! I can't simply keep on with him. My Huneyz are right. I'm just 14! Gotta move on with Life. Hey. LIFE GOES ON!! Yeah. And it really has. Remember the cupid? Thanks to Idah!! Hehe. Well here's the titbit to the cupid story.
` Went out last Saturday with Ina & Ais. Went to buy Syah's pressie fer her bdae on 02nd Sept. Afta that, met up with Idah. Then we went to Esplanade. haha! There, i saw Ashik. Yeah! No big tho. Whahaakx! Afta that me and Idah sat down with Idah's grp of friends - Adik and gang. One of Adik's friend; Ramdan. He is quite cute and really smart! Yeah, you guessed it. He is the cupid! *winks!* Haha.
` Wished i could elaborate but i really gotta go. Mum's calling. Till here. Chaloz!! Here's my new signing out qoute!

* - - ` ".HoneyBaby ouT!."

_` Heya!

2005-07-22T14:12:00.000-07:00

`Weeeeee! Well, here i am after a million zillion seconds of not updating! LOL! Well, im currently in Queenstown Community Library Multimedia section.

`Ok. Lets get this straight. Whoever is this "fuckQ" that has been tagging at my tagboard is realli pissing me off. She claims to be my friend but all of my friends knows that i'm the kinda person who is straight-forward and i detest people who beat around the bush. So, from now on. Whatever he/she wanna type, so be it alright? And if 'fuckQ' happens to be reading this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do a big favour and just never visit this blog ever agen. i'll really appreciate it!! really, reallu, really appreciate it ! ! ! !

`As for Myztikal. Now, who is this "help" & "tagger" tagging on my tagboaRd?!?!?!?! PLEASE STATE DOWN YOU EMAIL AT LEAST IF YOU DON'T WANT TO STATE YOUR REAL NAME OR A NICK NAME THAT I KNOW!uRgh! Stoopid sakk! Now, this "help" is asking me to help Myz. What?? HELP MYZ?? Common' he posted in his blog not to talk things out with him. if that's what he wants then that's what he gets for hurting me so much. Look, its not that i dun wanna help but its that everytime i do help, it will all bckfire on ME! He won't even listen to me. Well, don't try telling me "dun give up" well, then you try helping him out then if you think i am not doing good. I tried helping him once and he replied like as if he has all the help he needed. He doesn't need any help from me at all. ! Its proven on his tagboard. He is always using words to cover his actions. Yes, i admit. Yes, i did broke his heart but why are you all looking at THAT POINT ONLY!? Ya'll don't know how much i've been hurt by him.! Its unimaginable! My huneys knows how much it hurts. Especially Syalique & Shaniz. They were always there for me. They were the one who woke me up from his evil spell. i was helpless without them! Now, that i've moved on. I did tried to make frens with him still. I did try to talk things out with him but all that he ever did was.... NOTHING! He, himself told you that he is a damn bloody coward! What am i to do about it? He doesn't wanna face reality. What can i do? I can't change his mind-cep. Neither can you.! So, please just stop asking me to help him cause it'll just backfires on me and stress me out. Which in the end result in annoying me. FOR THE LAST TIME IF MYZTIKAL IS READING THIS: "YOU ARE FORGIVEN" for God's Sake would you please stop saying zillions of sorry-s to me!!!! Told you, NEVER repeat your words.!

` My brother? He's sentence is postpone to 2nd August.. . Wahlao. medical report still not in! How to close case? Haiyahh! So troublesome. This Singapore Law nowadays. . .

`Lets now talk about me!Wee hee. Had a great burfdae celebration last few weeks. I am still surprise that i am still getting birthday presents from some parties. LOL!!! Haha. Lucky me i say! Weeha!

`Wookey. Guess i better get going. Take care aite all of you? MISS EU ASHIK DARLING!

XoXo Serenade

_` in 3 more daess & i'm still sick!

2005-07-06T10:29:00.000-07:00

Ola!

Hey, in three more days, i'm 14! Ohmigod. I'm growing old. . hahakx! Well, i'm just kinda bored here. My sickness isn't getting any better. Its still the wae it is a month ago. ! uRh!! a month!?!? Tatz fuckin stoopid! I myself don't know how i could ever put up with it!! Well, of course at this point of time. I'm stucked home with my mum and my little brother. Urh!! Gawd dammit. This is the worst sickness i've ever had mann! Even chicken pox wasn't this bad!! Well, yarh it was for 2 months but it wasn't this bad! I could still go to sleep. Still taste wadever i eat. . This?? Na'ah!! Its fuckin hard for me to go to bed and everything i eat either taste bitter or i'll vomit it out. Haiz. Guys, if ya reading this. . please do me a big favour. No, its not tagg. If u do tagg it'll be better yarh! But this favour is, PLEASE PRAY THAT I'LL GET BETTER SOON! ArGhh! Haha!

Wokie, I have just finished my art. Not literally the whole thing but last week's work is finally done. I've drawn and coloured 10 birds!! Woo Hoo! Yeabah~. Well, this time round. . .i need to do some colouring. Cross-hatching, circular strokes and straight strokes in 3 different colours of primary and secondary respectively. . quiet easy huh? Yea. So, i guess i'll be doing that later on the day. Mebe after my nap? Yah. After my noon nap, i'll work on it. Suppose to be presenting my Malay Project today but since i'm still sick. I didn't want Ilmiah to get my sickness too so i stayed home. Doing her a favour. AGAIN! haha!! Well, i'd like to ask forgiveness from Jannah & Aisyah kae? Coz i cnt be der to present the project. But, i'll be there with out softvopy work kay gerls? Sorie!! My home econs work . .DONE! Finish ! ! But sadly i can't hand it in today. Not in school mahh!! Some more, today got Tuition Programme but i won't be there AGAIN! HAHA! Lame sial. Miss my tutee siak! HUmph!! Miss her! Wonder how she has been doing for her studies. Newaez, she is realli sweet. Last term, it was raining cats and dogs and i didn't have an umbrella so but she does. So, i sent her home cause she was afraid to go home alone in the rain and she wanted to lend me her umbrella so i sent her back home. Unfortunately, no one was home so, we just sat outside the corridor. Then there was this bunch of mat-mats. She knows them . Haha! She is onli 11 ! Those guys were like 16? 17? They were her brother's fren. They asked my tutee who i was and she said i was her tutor and that i had a boyfriend and she said do not disturb me or she'll tell her mother and brother. Then they teased her so, i stopped my tutee and simply ask her to be quiet. She listened. The guys kept on asking abt me and talking to me. Then, after an hour waiting for her mum. Her mum arrived home. She told her mum abt the guys and she said that i realli had to go home because it was raining heavily and she told her mum that she lend me her umbrella. Her mum was looking pleased. Her mum allowed. Then, my tutee and her elder brother, sent me to Tiong Bahru MRT. Haha. Wasn't that sweet of her to do that ? ? Lurvee her to deeps! Miss her sia! Weepido. yes i do! ahakx!

3 more daes!! Ha!

ayng!!. i miss eu !! Wei, ayng! smlm kater nk call. Tak call pon! Kater pkl 11pm call. Tk pon. Ouh. Bpk u tk bagi eh? alala. . . hehe. ayng, i miss u la!!! ergh! muah!

abang!!!!!!!!!! fuck u! u know i miss you alot!!? Why must you put yourself into sucha deep trouble?!?! Ergh! You better get home on my burfdae eve or else. . wenever u get home, i'm gonna wack u! Hehe! No la. abang, get home a.s.a.p kae? I miss eu like fuck ar sial! Hariz oso misses u sey! Both Hariz. Muhd. Hariz have been askin alot abt you. HarizFarhan have been missing you like hell oso. You know its bored w/o ur presence? Do you know that? YOU SHOULD!! It is fuckin bored!! Even though wen u're at home, u do nothing. . ur presence means alot to me and the family plus our friends. Abang, i love you alot! Come back sooN!!!

Haiz. Well, i guess i'll end my post here la. Long owedy sia. Kiez. Take Care ya'lls! Remember, pray for me to get well soon and err. . pray hard for my brother to get back home safely and soon k? Luv ya! *Tagg the board*

Chaloz!

XoXo Serenade

_`DEDICATED TO MY DEAREST ELDER BROTHER!

2005-07-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

Missing you . !

Everytime wen I am down
I will turn around and I see no one
No one but you
You gave me light, you brought the sunshine in my life
I couldn’t ever repay you

Thanks for being there for me
Thanks for joking around with me
But all I ask now is for another round
For you to be here with me

I miss you like crazy!
I miss you like fuck!
I miss you like no other girls ever will!
You are my brother, you my friend
You are the leaning tower, you are the man!

Please come back as soon as you can
I need you back here
I really need you mann!
You’ve let me be loved, you’ve left me in pain
You’re the one I respect no matter what I’ve said

I miss you like crazy!
I miss you like fuck!
I miss you like no other girls ever will!
You are my brother, you my friend
You are the leaning tower, you are the man!

Abang, I just wanna say
I love you a lot.
It doesn’t seem like its true
But it is, its not out of the blue.
I told you I hate you
But deep inside I don’t mean it
You know how much I’m missing you
Please tell me you do.
I need you here
I need you now
Just please get here..somehow.
Nadiah needs you
Nadiah wants you
Nadiah misses you
Nadiah loves you

_` eu know who its meant for!

2005-07-01T13:21:00.000-07:00

You’re nowhere near who I thought you were at all, Not the person who cared, or even caught my fall.You took my love for granted, never really cared for me, I thought you were special, but now I’m here to bleed.I see you're a joke, but I assumed you were so much more, From what I’ve saw from you today, you're far from mature.
Self harm was a last resort, and I was left with no control, I’ve had to hide my wounds and prevent my tears that roll.I’m ashamed to say that you've hurt me to this extent; I’ve tried to be stronger, but the pain is too intense. I thought you'd be different from the other guys, That you'd never hurt me, but every word was just a lie.
You told me that you wouldn't dream of ever hurting me, I tried to keep my feelings solitude, hoping you would see.Wishing one day you'd realise that we were meant to be.But I had to know the truth, grew the courage to be upfront, Then when I tried to speak, you couldn't of been more blunt."What happened between us we used to be so great?""You wanted something serious and I just wanted fun"
So I mentioned how you'd changed, before we'd even split, You went offline in arrogance and this is what it did:I hit the walls as tears fell stronger than the day i left you.I grabbed a knife that was too blunt to even make me bleed.So I took a compass and drew it hard into my skin, The blood began to flow, once again my pain you did win.
Now that I have realised, I no longer want you back, Although I still have feelings, I’ll never get you back.I thought you'd be mature to speak of what we had before,But a month down the line, you chose to forget and ignore.I don't need a 'boy' like you, even if my feelings do change, This time I won't give up again, this time I’ll take the reign.
I hope you'll make mistakes and realise what you've done, Hope you'll learn a lesson, get hurt and be outdone.I no longer fear about who you may want or be with next, Because I’ll no you either lied to me or you just want sex.It’s time to turn my back, tread each day without you here, I’ll show you I don't rely on you, and that I will make clear.
I'll take each step rising higher than you could ever be, I will not speak one word to your face, just for you to see.That I don't need you beside me, for me to survive this life, But now I have the scars to come, I’ll no longer use the knife.Although I loved, hated and cared without you knowing, When I'm strong and sturdy, it'll be the strength that I’ll be showing.

XoXo Serenade

2005-06-25T22:37:00.000-07:00

_` iTs juz mE. aCcEpT mY mOve!

2005-06-23T11:17:00.000-07:00

_` eu left.

Well, it all ended yesterdae. But, i do not need to get all smushi-mushi and tear about. i'm just glad that he aint gonna hurt me animore.

_`BooTsCruNk FCC!!

2005-06-21T03:18:00.000-07:00

_`BooTsCruNk FCC iNtRoduCtiOn!

ey. JusT waNNa iNtRo tO ya'LL tHaT tHe LaDeEz iN BooTsCrunk aRe tHoSe iN dHa baNneR aBv!! LeMMe iNtRo ya'LL oNe bY oNe aiTe??

FiRsTly, iTs cReaTed bY Feo. tHe paSsiOn oF daNce iN heR waS gReaT anD shE maNagEd tO oPeN a daNce gRp! iNspiRed fReM "fEdeRaLz".

BooTsCruNk oNe tiMe ya'LL!!!! wEn dEr's beaTs, wE'll dO ouR tHaNgg!! daNce tHe niiTe aWay yaR noE? wEe Hee! sO heRe aRe tHe mEmbeRs oF "BooTsCruNkFCC"!

++*Farresha a.k.a BabyEsha. 15. Queensway Sec. Currently Single!

++* Shakinah a.k.a KinahDuey. 16. Queensway Sec. Currently Attached!

++* SaraHaniz a.k.a BeautifulBitch/Shaniz. 14. Queensway Sec. Currently Attached!

++*Raihanah a.k.a NanaFeo/LiL Feo. 16. Queensway Sec. Currently Single!

++* SaraNadiah a.k.a Serenade. 13. Queensway Sec. Currently Attached!

There you have it! The BooTsCruNkerDs!! PeaCe!
XoXo SeReNaDe.

2005-06-19T13:42:00.000-07:00

iiTs heR & mE

Hey!! Its me agen. Just updating. I miss her alot!! Ina. Miss her like hell yar noe?? Ais oso! Miss her alot! Cant wait for sch to open then i can meet them and smile to them and hiug them and etc...lol! Well, just wanna post the song me and Myztikal recorded at the previous recording. Its called;

Tell Me [Rap version 3] by Serenade feat. Myztikal

Tell me that you stay true
Tell me that you'll never leave me blue
Baby make me cry and i dun wanna hear you tell me say goodbye
24/7 loving constantly
Reaching for the deeper side of me
Baby let it be,
The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly.
Everytime I reminice about the way we used to be
Hover-over trouble waters
Cant believe the blames on me
Stormy seas and fine blue wheater
Can't believe this shit oh no
Hold on baby cause you make me crazy

Can't believe you set me free
Tell me that you stay true

Tell me that you'll never leave me blue

Baby make me cry and i dun wanna hear you tell me say goodbye

24/7 loving constantlyReaching for the deeper side of me

Baby let it be,

The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly.

Ever since you set me free
I've been wondering how it'll be
Till death do us part
This is my vow till eternity
Everyday, dark and shine
I wonder will when this will be
Save me baby cause I'm going crazy
Baby please don't turn on me
Tell me that you stay true

Tell me that you'll never leave me blue

Baby make me cry and i dun wanna hear you tell me say goodbye2

4/7 loving constantly

Reaching for the deeper side of me

Baby let it be,

The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly.

[Rap]

Tell me baby coz i just wanna know

How and what you did for me, you really showed me love besides all those other, beautiful things
It makes me wonder, should i place your fingure with a diamond ring?
You bring light to the darkness that falls upon me
and you tell me that witchu I'll never be blue, its true that you set me free;
for me. But what goes on inside
We shall see won't we?

For me, you've given me more then what i need

So tell me, why are you doing this for me?

I'm not wealthy nor I have things to offer

just my love for you which is not for another so remember the vow i made for you and me

Till death do us part forever till eternity

So love me baby, i'm no longer crazy
Baby its just you and me, so tell me

That you stay true

Tell me that you'll never leave me blue

Baby make me cry and i dun wanna hear you tell me say goodbye

24/7 loving constantly

Reaching for the deeper side of me

Baby let it be,

The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly.

24/7 loving constantly
Reaching for the deeper side of me
Baby let it be,
The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly.

Tell me that you stay true

Tell me that you'll never leave me blue

Baby make me cry and i dun wanna hear you tell me say goodbye

24/7 loving constantlyReaching for the deeper side of me

Baby let it be,

The rhyme, the melody i dedicate so dearly...

[To listen to the song, click on the link below. This link is active from 19June till 26June]

http://s22.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1RV7B0MMLE1AI1C64TOCLP0ARX

Now, above all....I'd like to shout out to my mum...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! I LOVE YOU ALOT!! MUACKX!!!!!!!!

XoXo Serenade

2005-06-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

iiTs siMpLy mUh HuBby!! Lurvee eeu Garfield DarLinG!!

oLa!! Its me agen. Well, well...lets see now. Hhmm, yesterdae was my 3rd Month with Myztikal and it didnt turned out as expected. Dud! This was what happened, it was our monthsary. On 13th June, we fight about wad my mum said about him. "at his age, he shud be getting his pay by now!" Hey common!! Myztikal is still studying duhh!! Whader expect?! So, Myztikal kindda got sick of my mum always assuming stuffs that arent true about him and its always the negative ones. *Saper tk fed up sak?..* Then, i tried to comfort him but then "kanina" came out [sorry on tat harsh word] so, i was like "Wahder!? he used that on my mum!? Infront of my very eyes?!" (it was sms-ing duhh!) Well then, i just tried to chill but then the arguement worsen till the next day which is out monthsary. It was dudly!! Didnt meet him for the whole dae, didnt talk to him till niite, didnt even sms more then 10!! WHAT THE FUCK!? I cant help it but cry the whole day long. Yeah, pathetic riite? But then at ard 10.30pm, my ex..Ashik came over and talked things out and then bla, bla and he went home, i went home and then used the comp fer a little while longer and then, he called. And guess what, WE FOUGHT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like *tooot* >=(( Was so mad at him i almost hung up. Then we sort things out and by early this morning, things were settled. Then at 1pm, went over to his crib and chill fer awhile then went to Lot 1 Library then we went to muh crib.. He just went home an hour ago. Miss him alot! Well, Ashik now doesnt want me to talk to him As in, he is trying to say forget him tottaly! Like, IM NOT GONNA DO THAT!!!! I dun forget the poeple i met thru in my life. So, i'm gonna sae this out for the first time on the net. FARAH!! I MISS YOU!!!!!! If you are Farah, onced had a childhood friend named Sara Nadiah, schooling in P.A.P Kindergaten at Jurong West where theMiss Tan always asked me to hold the key when we're playing outside. Then there's this guy named Hakim we both liked. *blush* and the two girls we hate, Noraini and Afira. If you are her, please email me. baby_serenade@hotmail.com I miss you!!

XoXo SeReNaDe

2005-06-03T15:01:00.000-07:00

iits a fakke smiile..juzz tto coverr thee teearss

Ola! Well its me on the update agen. Just wanna say that yester day i had a bad day. Firstly, my mum woke me up at 8 plus just to force me to go to Bukit Batok West Ave 2 to send a msg and so i did...Got $10 fer that. Dud! After that, i was alone. My mum asked me to go to the mosque to finish some work or something so i did as told. WEnt there and the job was to cut passport photos. TIRING SIA!!

Like as if that aint bad enuff, my aunt there asked me to type in some evaluation survey thingy and since i am good at Microsoft Excel, she asked me to creat tables and all sorts of complicating stuffs that really squeezed my brain. Still, you wouldnt imagine this would happen!! I haven't eaten the whole day and those workers at the mosque brought some food!!! My fave!! -Chicken Fried Rice!! I sat there in the office just lukin at them eat and then, this fella, Cik Herni cant finish her food and she wanted to throw it away so i quickly stopped her and said i'll eat tat. WEll, yarh, i did get to eat. After all that work, i was so tired and i was freezing inside that office. It was soo cold!! So i went out and made my way to the Youth Room and I met Shakinah, chit-chat for abt 30mins and i went home. At home, i wanted to sleep cause i was exhausted and i know at night i've got a class but my mum said not too! I was so frust that time that i dun even noe why suddenly i took the broom and swept the house [PATHETIC!!-was angry and i did house work] But i did went to sleep then ard 7 plus, Myztikal kissed me awake. Was so unexpected. That was so sweet of him to do that. Thanks baby!! Then at night, i cant sleep so, i editted some pics and then i called baby and we talked for almos 2hrs oni. Went to sleep den woke up 11am sai todae!! Didnt go work..Haiz! Den my mum nagged and i cant go out so here i am sitting infront of the conputer updating. Seems like i'm leading a boring life at the momemt. Haiz. Aitez, speaking of boring, i better go and do something else....Chaloz!

XoXo SeReNaDe

2005-06-03T10:24:00.000-07:00

*++iits juss mee & eeu boii++*

_`SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

_`Please...

2005-05-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

WaDs HaPpeNinG aRoUnd miE..
iM cOnFusEd..
WaD iS hE TryiNg To cHanGe mE inTo..
haRGh..! WaDeVer iTis..
iTs biG iSsuE hEre.. mYz aGain..
yEsh wHy Him.. TruTh iS i DuNno..
i JusT waNna cLeaR ThiNgs ouT wiTh yOu GuYs..
He's noT a BaD Guy aFTeR aLL..
Yes i kNoe hE's a "talent-scout" LyKe waD yOu sAy..
TruTh iS..i nOe diEr Da ReLeK SkG..
CraPpy Guy..?
iM MaKin sUrE hE wiLL MaKe daT a hiSTorY..
i kNoe i SaiD LoTsa ThinGs BouT hiM..
buT ThinKin aGain..
i rEmeMbEreD saYinG
daT i WaN Him To cHaNge
bT bY saYinG ThOsE sTuFFs..
iT wOnT cHaNge..
LoOkin aGain inTo Him..
hE's a nYce GuY acTuaLLy aNd
i kNoe hE's TryinG haRd To cHanGe
buT hE dOesnT nOe How..
he nEeds HeLp ToTaLLy..

iTs GoOd noEinG DaT hE iS
sO sOrRy BouT waD HaPpen..
buT Myz dUn bE..
u HaF To MovE oN wiTH uR nEw LyFe..
HurT gErLs nO mOre MyZ..
aRe yOu GoNna coLour uR
NaMe wiTh bLaCk craYoNs aGain..?
WasnT DaT inCidEnT a siGn FrOm GoD...
i kNoe u sTiLL waNna enJoY
buT yOu HaF To LoOk To aHeaD..
nO mOre pLayBoYs sTuFF..
u aRe a Grown uP 19 YeaR oLd HuNniE..
sO pLz..
i BeLieVe u aRe a GuD GuY..

no One eLse sTaTes DaT BesiDes miE..
KiP daT in miNd..
iT TaKes a GreaT sOuL
To ForGivE a Guy LikE yOu..

2005-05-27T19:54:00.000-07:00

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

_`JuzUpdating

2005-05-16T00:59:00.000-07:00

Olarz!! Chck this out peepz, i'm officially 2 months wif my Clyde and i got to know that Grace [a fren of my brother's] whom my brother calls "a dancer" cnt get my moves!! Omigod!! Well; we are trying to get a few talented peeps out der to cum down for open session on hip hop dance. This week, you can just simply contact me thru my email addy- nad241@hotmail.com to get more info on this information. Okaeyz fer now lets talk about my brother. My elder brother, Dice..he is interested in my crew's choreographer; LiL Feo a.k.a Nana Feo. He was creating poems and sum english lyrics for her on MSN earlier on. Of course the lyrics were done with a little help from me...dier tuu maner lar baek sgt dlm bahase org puteh nie... ehekx!! Tapikn, kalau mlayu...aku kalah dier urh..=( Wahahakx!! Adik bradek...tSk3

Well, my bro realli wants to be attached with Nana but Nana has been abused in love so many times that she dun find the courage within her to get a new one. I dun blame anyone. Well; wokie...i cant take it!! I needa slp...mwahkx!! Chaoz..Chelorz!!

XoXo Serenade

_`Ghetto School!!

2005-05-03T19:35:00.000-07:00

Ola!! Well, i'm currently in school just finished my desing & tech class...now given an opportunity to surf the net; i'll update since my comp at home cant excess internet yet. WEll well; its been a long time since i update and yar i know its boring..
Lets talk bout what happened yesterdae..Me and Clyde had an argument over jeolousy.........................HaiZ!!!! Clyde hates my god-brother; Samsir(ano). Yesternight he came over, both guys. Then Samsir was teaching me Mathematics as he was revising for his maths paper the following dae. I asked Clyde to sit beside me and help me out but he just nod and walk into my brother's room. WHAT THE TOOOT?! Then after he went home i called him and we quarrel over till i cried myself to bed....continue nex tham...=))

XoXo Serenade

__`Back Fer Dha Time Being

2005-04-15T14:52:00.000-07:00

Hello!!! Im back fer dha moment...muh comp at home still dwn...I'm just updating wen i get dha chance 2... Well, lemme tell ya'll something lar eh; share-share siket!! Eu noe this ex of muaine named Ashik messaged me at Friendster and he started saying he misses me and doz kinda stuffs related.... He now knows too that I'm with Myzt.. 1 month! Mwahkx!!-Cyang u!!

+Kk, Well...I better get going now.... Bubbyez!! Nanti2 i'll update agen wen i can....juz bare with the no tag-board blog here
XoXo Serenade

__`Sorry

2005-03-31T15:45:00.000-08:00

Ola! I just wanna say that i'll not be updating this blog for a few weeks...comp tkleh akai urh!! Sowiez...BUbbyez!!

XoXo Serenade

++PzOwT!

ImBacK!

2005-03-18T19:09:00.000-08:00

Hey all, its been awhile since i update. I've been trying to update in the pass but everytime i type in something, it just doesn't seem to make sense. Realli! Well, i'm here just to keep ya'll up to date aitez? Well, i got a new blog which is shared with Myztikal, my dearest one and only darling baby!! Mwahkx!! Love him alotz!! Well, the moving was on 4 daes ago, 14.o3.o5. Now it seems like all my friends are coming back to me once more and plus i got my baby but, my mum aint realli talking to me bcoz i fummed up at her yesterdae. Na'ah, wont tell ya'll abt it. Sorry!! Its family matters...you seriously dun wanna noe. Hehe, well, yesterdae was a dud if Myztikal wasnt der fer me. I love you alot baby!! Mwahkx!!

XoXo Serenade

__`PIctures Of Mueh!!

2005-03-14T21:04:00.000-08:00

Shaniz & Me

Me @ Sci Ctr

Me @ Masjid Darussalam with muh couzziez

05.03.05 ~ 3 teenage ghurls in dha couzziez family unite!

Muh baby & Me!!! Mwahkx!!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2005-03-14T00:41:00.000-08:00

_`TheHappinessIsBeingBlockedBySadness

2005-02-23T22:18:00.000-08:00

Hey, not really feeling too good. Really bummed out, farked up and pissed off. Dont even have the mood to find a song that goes with this post. Lemme just shoot out what happened. If you dun udnerstand comment it aitex? I'll explain dha next time i update,
//*Sakinah, Aisyah, Syahidah...3 bez ghurls i hang ard since last year in school. Shared ol our probs together....but this year...dere are treating me with the shittiest, crappiest treatment a fren cn ever receive...even tho they do lend me some change, da wae dey talk to me is different. Urh..no mood urh...nex time i update agen lar..soz!
xoxo ara nad
pzowt+

>.::.~OvEr bY LinDsaY LoHaN~..::.<

2005-02-23T16:01:00.001-08:00

Hey! Here is the lyrics to the song playing - "Over by Lindsay Lohan". A dedication for my brother on behalf of his ex girlfren...

I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, yeah, I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)

My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Tell me that it's over, over
Honestly tell me, honestly tell me
Don't tell me it's over
Don't tell me it's over
* wheeps. *

{[+ThE ChaNgE+]}

2005-02-22T00:17:00.000-08:00

Hey!! Well, Just a simple update again... The song together with this post is "Lindsay Lohan - That Girl". Well, I've notice some changes in myself. So did my family and friends. Not am i saying im turning negatively bad...but I'm starting to see the brightness of life. I've never ever once said to myself "Oh, i love myself" when i look in the mirror in the past. But now, my friends, my family and especially Myztikal have made me do that. I'm thankful to them and to myself too. Not forgetting Fahmi. The god-brother who was there to listen to my sorrows and actually tried his best to cheer me up. Even tho we do quarrel lots of time. We still care about each other! Here is what happen to me after knowing myself from myself..geddit? =)
//*Sara Nadiah, a simple teenage ghurl who always thinks that life is juz a quest given to us. A dull, boring, sickening thing to be in. That was in the past. As she attend primary school and started having friends but bad company ones.....those feelings changed to worst... Luckily, a teacher; Mdm Niryanty made her realise her quality as a student leader in her and she changed her ways. Time goes by and she made her way to secondary school, a school far from her primary school. Queensway. Strict discipline but flexible teachers and peers. Her friends were brilliant! She enjoyed her time there but she realli misses the time she had wen she was with Mdm Niryanty and her primary 6 graduating class form teacher, Mrs Hairmann...
//*Miss you both!!!
//* Although her primary sch frens are seperated from her by the dispersion into different schools, Sara and her friends still keep in contact. Calling each other and meeting at her place was lots of fun!! Now, Sara is a much more open minded and creative...she thinks about all possibilites of life and her commitment towards changing herself is 100% and her commitment to make others happy is 110%...She never let her loved ones groan in pain as she grow. She tries her best to make every moment in life a memorable one including visiting the washroom...-(actually there was a farnie and memorable incident that happen..tell ya'll next time) - This teenager is simply a teen who puts others before self and put self before actions. For actions do have consequences...=)
//* A little thank you to all those who have changed my life for the better and also for the worst cause I learnt from every mistake i make. I once had a dream the life I'm having now. Thanks for making that dream a reality!! Muackx!!!
XoXo aRa NaD
++PzOwT!++

+[+]->|WoRds cN huRt yOu, wOrDs cN maKe yOu sMiLe|<-[+]+

2005-02-20T21:40:00.000-08:00

Hey!! Welcum again, yarps...new song. I try to associate every post with a significant song. Something happened in muh life today and I cant quite believe it. After a whole day of fighting with my emo and getting fumed up with muh younger brothers always annoying me, plus dha lost of muh ez-link, something so great you can't simply put it in correct words happen. Its not an event that makes u cry out your tears cause you're sad or you're scared. Its an event that allow tears to flow against your cheeck and you feel fear gone, only you and your inner child communicates and your you hear your heart actually talking to you..Here is a little bit about muh day,
//*Have you checked out muh fren called Myztikal's Blog? Well, if you haven't later den check out..now you read muhaine ferst! =) This Myztikal, a fren, a close companion, muh counsellor, my elder one whom i treat with the utmost respect and concern...One who i will continue to look up too no matter what. If he does anything wrong, I'm not treating him differently. This vow i made is because I believe nobodys perfect. He told me once that he treats me with respect and he loves me as a sister and i'm blessed enuf. How can I ever possibly repay him? He has actually open my mind to think thru about everything that I do, he made me realise that my inner-someone isnt just a girl but a girl with highly respected dreams and he also made me feel the way I've longed to feel. Loved by a brother. Even tho yes, i do have a bloodbrother but you gotta understand that the gap between us is only 2 years. His thoughts and mine are never the same for he never think out the outcome of an action (Sorry, if you're offended). Its hard for me to communicate with my blood brother. And its been a few months since i last got his concern. Myztikal, just want you to know i'm more then blessed that you've entered one of the chapters in my life. You've create a climax that no girl like me can feel blessed. I was once living in dark cell with just the love from my parents and words of encouragement from muh besties but now, ever since you've unlock the cell, I'm free to see the greenery of nature, blue sky above me even wen its raining, happy faces everywhere even in the mirror. =D
//*Just want you to know that having someone who treats me the wae I ought to be treated and one who understands me and stand up to his rights just for me is the best thing I can ever possibly receive. On muh birthday, i dont want anything from you....Just your voice saying "Happy Birthday" to me is more than enuf. I'm in love with myself eversince you wake me up. There are so many things that seem small to you but huge to me. The impact is liek you giving me a new mind. Expressing muh feelings in songs has never been an easy task for me...and its not now either but its easier now compared to last time. All your words, wen i think about it as i end my day...It reflects on who I want to be, who i will be and what i will be. Thanks for everything that you've done. All you commitment can never be repayed by me enuf. All i can do is pray to Allah that you're in the pink of health and may He bless you with best wishes and gud luck in everything you do. I'm lost of words to describe how trully precious you are to me, I realli dream and not wish that you will always be there for me when i need you. For wishes gets me no where but dreams keeps me goin'.
//Thanks Myztikal!!!
XoXo - aRa NaD
++PiZoWt!++
((Song played along with this post :: "Pieces Of Me - Ashlee Simpson"))

+[[.x.]]+|JuSt kEeP oN tHinKinG aBtcHu, NoT!|+[[.x.]]+ =P

2005-02-19T10:01:00.000-08:00

eLoRx! Well, here is another update. This is just a simple update I'm writing 'coz I'm finally getting over Ashik. I met his friend yesterdae and i felt realli sorry coz i was telling him things he realli need not noe...I felt liek i was pastering him all along since 23rd Jan! Sorry!! Well, the song being played is just for ya'll to noe that I'M THROUGH WITH HIM!!!
Heres what happened if you guys wanna noe...
//* o2nd January 2oo5. The day i remembered being somebody's angel. Waited for him at Boon Lay Int at 12.30pm and he arrived with his bud. I juz cant stop feeling happy cause his mine. He was the first whom i actually had a serious releationship with. I held him tight in my arms and wishing he'll always be the one. Time flies, a weeks past...and he started to act the way i never wanted him too. Ignoring me, talking shit->and i realli mean shit! Crap shit! I called him once a day and talked to him for a few secs, the longest one wud realli shock dha heck outta u..the longest talk on the phone was 51secs...yarpx..five-one...51 SECONDS! nt minutes! I felt realli lost, did i do something wrong? No, i did not! I even told him once that he cud me aside, in low high tides...i told him i will abide! Of coz, no guy wud listen to that line! Suddenly, one day...a girl who called herself 'LiL Cuttie' from Frenster msg-ed me asking me to tell AShik to fark off...and bla3 urh...So, i was starting to suspect something was realli wrong. I called him up the next day, 23rd Jan - a Sunday..and wanted to meet him after not meeting him for dha last 5 days! He said he has got homework and some common test revision to do. I was foolish enuf to believe that and i give in. That was at 1pm or so....after 4hrs, i called him agen and his mum said, he went out for breakdancing....I didnt at all felt cheated; i started to think positive ever since i got to be with him. Its liek i cant breathe the way i normally do wen i'm with him. I thought he went out after revising his work for a little fun with his buddys....Den after afew hours, He called muh house askin fer muh handphone number; (he cant even remember?) so, i gave him and he sms-ed me saying; "U...sorry to tell you that i wanna break up, i wanna study, im listening to muh teacher's advice..sorry, i've give this a deep thought" After reading that msg my blood stopped rushing, my heart stopped beating, my breath felt cold and my whole body felt numb. I was stuck at the spot i was at, tears rolling down my cheeck without traffic, eyes went red and my nose wet, i drop myself on the floor with the phone in my hand; thinking about what mistake i did that made him give up on me. Did i not give him enuf care? Did i not try to make things better? Did i not try to be patient with him? Did i not understand him? All those thoughts were haunting me from then till now. I couldnt help but thinking of him but now, at this moment. I realise that i'm being a fool. Why muz i think and still love somebody who actually tore half my world apart? They dont deserve it! I'm one who is suppose to be treated better than the wae he treated me. After he is gone, now i can breathe...the wae i normally do. So heres just the words i want to tell you, 'Thank You!'
XoXo - aRa NaD
//*PiZoWt*\((Song played along with this post :: "Since U've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson"))

[ . [xLoSt DaYx] . ]

2005-02-17T18:54:00.000-08:00

Hey! Well, this is dha ferst layout fer muh blog..comment on it aite? Dun ferget to tag kayz?..Well, lemme juz simply tell yall bout muh dae. First of all, lemme wish muh blood-brother; "Happy 16th Birthday BrO!!!!!" Yarpx, its his birthday today.
//*About muh day..woke up early today at around 5+am...took muh morning bathe and switch this computer on and edit dha blog template but i didnt have enuf time to update earlier on so im doin it now. eHeHeKx! Got dha background music on; Currently playing "Sunshine" Jojo. You can turn it off if you find dha song irritating or anythin' annoying. Well, lets continue about muh daY; got ready fer school and then chat with Myztikal who eventually didnt slept dha whole nite thru..Gosh! tsk3..den ard 06.10am i gotta chao fer school...So, switch dha internet shut and woke muh parents up and then get out of dha house. and.........realise that I LOST MUH EZ-LINK CARD!!! aRgH!!!!!!! DamMiT!!! *groans all dha wae* took dha bus to school and everything went awfully bad in school...English period was a total bummer! A friend got class canning and i realli2 cant bare to see it happening...dha sound of it juz scares dha hibijings outa me..!! Seriously! Then followed by Language class, which was dha greatest period of dha day..Just do sum work then we get to chill ard and chat...bla3....After school; went home and got freaked out when i saw muh two siblings not in school but actually messing muh room!!! So tired, i didnt realli screamed at 'em to get thier ass out of there...but i actually just gave em a cold stare and luckily they understand wad i was trying to sae...Phew! save muh energy..Chill fer a bout an hour den went for a cold nice bathe and watch a little of TV while having my noon-meal...Then I started searching high and low for dha stoopid card....BUmmer! I didnt find it...How wonderfooooooL!! Got so farked up, i decided to do something that will at least chill me down and do sum useful work...So, i switch on dha internet and started surfing it...So, here i am updating and trying to calm muhself dwn...
//*Did you actually really read all of those words i typed out? Wow! Great...But my dae aint getting any better...I've got a night class today with muh dad...Every Thursday!! and it actually starts at 2030hrs - 2230hrs...Well, guess this will be enough of updation for dha dae...You wont read a whole junk that doesnt have anything to do withchu at all would you? haha!! Okiez, signing off,
XoXo - aRa NaD

++PiZoWt!++
((Song played along with this post :: "Sunshine by JoJo"))

//++ " .1sT pOsT-gRaNd oPeNiNg!!. "

2005-02-05T03:43:00.000-08:00

++/>eLoRx!!!! Here is ma grand opening of ma new blogspot speech.
Thanks to ya'll that have given me strength and encouragement to stand up tall when I'm trying to get over the stress after a lost of somebody in ma life. Thankx!! To you dha ones who have just got to know me, add me aT MSN aitex? [[nad241@hotmail.com]]*P.S:: Hackers, Virus-Users aint welcuM!!*
I'm here just to fill up ma time daily. Usually, I complete ma house-chores, eat and watch a little of tele then use dha phone. When I'm using the computer, I'll check my 'Friendster', 'Hotmail', 'MSN'. For now, I gtg....i'll update the next time i'm free!!
XoXo aRa NaD--
//++PiZoWt!++\\

" .ThE oBsTaClEs liFe tHrOwS aT mE. "

AT LAST !!

ITS ALL A MESS

FIRST DAY!

just some random pics.. again.

its a brand new year...

open my eyes

its complicating la.

my blog ritee?

you might just be right here

HIP HOP AGANDA

loooong awaited..

NOTHING HURTS MORE THAN THIS

guilty fills me inside out..

its been awhile..

i am me

death..

tell me..

__weeflife..

313 : 2oo6

LIP GLOSS!!

Life..

Its smokin!

love

i miss

random blogging

names..

its just another day

room makeover!!

you tested my patience..

sweets!!

TRUST

any pics calling fo edits?

and it all went fine

great time mayne !!

tears on my pillow; pain in my heart

Wicked Saturday !!

nuff said.

Urgh. The feeling of lethargic-ness.

i'll miss you

Ain't No Meaning, seriously.

<3 him <3 me <3 u

Teenage Icon Semi-Finals 1

Yeah. Its MY BURFDAE .!!

Baby I Swear ..

" . one less perfect then the next *

complications after complications

Yesterday, wasnt THE DAY

Complicate THIS life of mine AGAIN

\\*Corrupted*//

You Don't See Me

\\*Makes No Sense*//

\\*Everyone Needs to Change*//

\\*URGHH!!*//

\\*Responded*//

\\*Take Care*//

Why?

-`dFAMOUS-FIVE

-'dUPDATE

theTHRUTH

* -- ` Miss'd Me?

//*Officially In School*\\

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT ME

\\*_`LeavingItAllBehind! *//

_` Heya!

_` in 3 more daess & i'm still sick!

_`DEDICATED TO MY DEAREST ELDER BROTHER!

_` eu know who its meant for!

_`BooTsCruNk FCC!!

_`SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

_`Please...

_`JuzUpdating

_`Ghetto School!!

__`Back Fer Dha Time Being

__`Sorry

ImBacK!

__`PIctures Of Mueh!!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

_`TheHappinessIsBeingBlockedBySadness

>.::.~*OvEr bY LinDsaY LoHaN*~..::.<

\\Corrupted//

\\Makes No Sense//

\\Everyone Needs to Change//

\\URGHH!!//

\\Responded//

\\Take Care//

//Officially In School\\

\\_`LeavingItAllBehind! //

>.::.~OvEr bY LinDsaY LoHaN~..::.<

{[+ThE ChaNgE+]}

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